Cait

Soul (2020)

Director: Pete Docter 

“that i could cancel out the darkness i inherited from dad”

"I just don't want them to change me. "

"How will they change you?"

this is not a gale safe space

burdock, who stayed by haymitch when he was deep in the clutches of depression, trauma, and alcoholism. burdock, who refused to leave his side, even when haymitch was actively trying to distance him, right up until he did something that realistically could have killed asterid. haymitch, who thought that this was the worst thing he ever did - worse than what he did in the games

haymitch, who had to watch burdock show off his daughter from a distance, rather than by his side. haymitch, who didn’t grow up to be ‘uncle hay’, but the drunk victor who falls off the stage, who katniss considers ‘disgusting’ (happy 40th)

haymitch, who had to look at this girl who so strongly resembles burdock, fight herself into the ground, nearly die over and over, and become the enemy of the most powerful man in the country, the man who destroyed his life. haymitch, who watches the only living reminder of the best friend he once had, become the face of the revolution at sixteen years old.

haymitch, who watches burdock’s bow and arrows become a symbol of the revolution, watches them end the games with a carefully calculated shot.

haymitch, who loves katniss everdeen. haymitch, who stays alive to look after his family.

I’m sure he had it all calculated. He knew exactly what choices would give him the best odds of survival. He knew that the faster he got out of the initial bloodshed the better his chances would be. He knew that letting other kids die would benefit his odds of survival. He knew exactly what he should’ve done to preserve himself.

And yet, he threw all those statistics and odds, all that reason and logic out the window in the name of protecting Lou Lou, a girl that wasn’t even from his district. He threw it all out the window in the name of helping another human being that was in an unfair situation and had worse odds than him. He knew who the real enemy was; he knew it wasn’t the other kids being taken advantage of by the Capitol just like him.