Put 'im down mate, he's only little

I have had one dream my whole life, to be a mom with a happy family, a good life. That's it.

The universe is hell bent on me never getting that.

I just want to be alive again.

I want to be able to feel and not have to panic about what feeling anything means or me.

I want to be able to exist without the stress of everything else.

I dont want to exist anymore

I dont want to contribute to this endless cycle if working till we die

I want to live in a small house, somewhere quiet, and just write, do puzzles, drink tea, paint if i feel like it.

I dont want to waste my energy on a job I dont give a shit about

I dont want to worry about money and bills

Im so fucking tired

I dont want to do this anymore.