C4Hawaii

I don’t wanna be here anymore

It’s so hard faking to be happy

Yeah still holding on...jeeez

It’s still not getting easier. Seeing you everyday kills me.

I’ll suffer in silence. It’s okay. I’ll be okay.

Hi good morning

If I tweet or put something on snapchat it’s still a subliminal message to you, and I know how that goes when I see it. so I guess I’ll just vent on here. There’s no other way for me to let it out. Just tweeting how I feel or just writing it down feels so much better. Wish you think of me too. I know you miss me too. There’s so much for me to say or let out. Just having you there or near all the time makes it more difficult to move on. I still can’t let go. No matter how much you hurt me, and still do. Why do I keep going back? Why do I suffer to get something from you? Why do I put myself down everyday when I see you. Because seeing you everyday reminds me of a failure that I am.

It still doesn’t get easier

You just decided to up and leave when you wanted. Not even letting me know. Your feelings gradually faded while mine stayed and you didn’t even have the audacity to mention anything until the end. I tried to tell myself that we could be friends still. My feelings were still there for you. This has been the hardest month of my life, but now realizing some things. I’m not sure if I could ever forgive you for this. I’m sorry

Why can’t I just get over you?

Worst friend ever? Yep

I need help.