Today was nice.

Took a leave of absence from work so I can find remote work. I have been applying everywhere and I’m taking assessments to see if I can pass and be proficient. I really want to be close to Dan since he’s moving up north soon and working from home will give me more time to be flexible so I can see him more, I can finish my associates, transfer to a different school, run, take more photos, and maybe even pursue modeling. If things don’t work out, I am considering moving to China or Russia. It would be a nice fresh start. I could learn a different language and also teach English. It would be a different world and I would be excited to experience it.

I’m trying to leave my job and look for other places for work. I can’t be there anymore. I want to work full time but something less strenuous and physically demanding. I just want to be with Dan. I’m also considering leaving the country and moving to China or Russia. I don’t know what to do.

Nothing but moldy blueberries where I’m volunteering. Make sure to eat blueberries. Not moldy ones, though.

I’m just realizing on my pay stubs that it says I am still married which is not true I have my divorce decree. I’m only noticing this now. Every time I’ve filed for taxes I’ve filed single since my divorce.

There is a possibility of me moving to nyc sometime soon! I think I may have found a place. I’m going to start selling all my stuff. I can’t bring it all with me. If this doesn’t work out then my next plan is moving to China or Russia. I don’t know if I want to be here anymore. I just want to start new but I want to with Dan.

I had an amazing Valentine’s Day with Dan. ❤️ he’s the best thing to ever happen to me.

If it wasn’t for Dan, I think I would still be lost with no direction in mind. I’m blessed to know him. Even when he stays the night, I sleep better. I hope he knows how important he really means to me. <3

I ran 22 miles this week and I plan on maintaining that for awhile. I would like to start joining some races this year. I really wish I could go to school full-time, too. I’m trying hard because I never really was given the opportunity so I have to give it to myself. And Dan has been my biggest help with everything. :’)

Dan is the best thing to ever happen to me. I’m going to go to school and finish my degree. I really want a chance to make my life better. I’m blessed to know him. I just want the best for me and for him and I want to be his equal. I want to love him without financial dependency.