“涙を止まらない”

On the first fifteen days of 2020, I came to a perspective that conclude some of my questions in life.

1. Don’t underestimate yourself.

2. It’s safe to stick around, but it’s fun to accept new challenges (including new people, new job, etc). Always stay under their armpit will make you nothing than a dry skin.

3. Resolutions some of the times didn’t work out as we planned, therefore prioritize yourself today, and day by day.

4. There is a slightly difference between strive for and worrying about the future.

5. Rely your future to the universe, time will answer.

6. People born to have a different path and journey in life. Don’t think or feel too much towards them, or even comparing yourself with them.

for the better of my future self and yours,

I know, it's hard for us to stop comparing ourselves with those pretty girls on Instagram. But have you ever think, why we wanna be them so much?

It may be because of their appearance, skinny body, good skin good hair, cute expensive clothes, and idk may be fancy life style that we all don’t have. Oh and I forgot to mention, handsome rich boyfriend that always gives overwhelmingly pricey stuffs.

We all wanna be perfect.

but we can’t stop seeking for others perfection and try to apply it in our life.

We need to accept the reality that we are not born with their privileged. We can’t deny the fact that may be we are weigh more, me: 1 1/4 times heavier than those chicks, and we basically can’t afford those clothes. Our boyfriend may not have good symmetrical face and yet we still date at food stalls. But that’s completely fine. I’m okay with that. I’m trying and I will be okay with the life I live in.

I may not even cross the standard of Asian beauty. But I’M OKAY. YOU”RE OKAY. And we will all be okay. 

The universe will keep going, and we will have place [good fate] in here. [believe it]

Think about your childhood’s dream. Focus on that feeling you had when you’re kid, when you didn’t wanna lose to something, when you still wanted to protect what’s yours, and when this shitty life haven’t hit you with give up option and all you do is trying again.

Lets win this ‘insecurity’ game with that spirit.

Let’s believe that no matter what happen in the future, how much weigh we have, what clothes we wear, whoever boy we fall in love with, we will be happy no matter what and we will destroy our toxic thoughts about our life is a mess and their life are pretty.

Cause we don’t give a fuck, whatever happen to them won’t change our fate in life.

And what makes us happy in life, no one can ruin it.