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And to me, that is the role her heart condition & hospitalisation play. Most of you of you have never been queer, chronically ill teen girls with self-worth issues & depression, and it shows. Which is fine, I am aware that is not a universal experience.

However, a lot of the analysis i see that frames the wish as being selfish (specifically the part about Homura wanting to be strong enough to protect Madoka) or obsessive from the start don't seem to understand Homura's relationship with Madoka - or even herself - at this point in time. There's the obvious of Homura still feeling physically weak & having hang-ups from spending a substantial period in the hospital by 14, and Madoka literally saves her life, then dies protecting her later, but if it was just these things Homura would've equally imprinted this onto Mami too.

No, the main thing is how chronic illness & isolation have formed Homura's social anxiety, self esteem issues & lack of social skills. Madoka is one of the first people to treat Homura with true kindness after starting school & genuinely tries to engage with Homura. Homura, after her first day, is already ripping into herself (an experiance lot's of teens with anxiety know well) before the witch appears, then is saved by Madoka who she finds out is as well as being confident & actively participating in school socially, in her free time saving people's lives. It's no wonder Homura starts to see Madoka as having all the traits & inherent emotional & physical strength Homura thinks she lacks. Especially as a girl in her early teens with strong self-worth issues, this idolisation of someone she saw as someone who brightened the world & protected others (emotionally & physically) wouldn't be unusual at all.

Homura wouldn't see it as prioritising her role as protector for credit or to further her ends with Madoka, more that in protecting Homura, Madoka was protecting someone unworthy & too weak to be worth the effort. So she wanted to be strong enough A) to not be a burden to Madoka, B) to be useful & worthy in the way Madoka was & C) By not being weak she wouldn't be from her view the cause of Madoka's death by causing Madoka to prioritise protecting Homura over herself. Homura would see this as just returning the favor of the role Madoka played saving her, she would probably see it as more selfish to wish for Madoka to be strong enough to save herself because Madoka was already the strongest person she knows, Homura saw her own weakness as the reason for Madoka dying, so fixing that would be the easiest way to help Madoka, in her eyes at least.

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