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@burninghcuse asked: hey! thank you for the follow! :> these are just 100% spitballing no-strings-attached ideas for burninghcuse (and saix, to be specific), like an ice breaker: 💔 💛 🧡 🖤 🗡️

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send 💔 for a toxic ship between our muses send 💛 for our muses to be friends send 🧡 for our muses to be friends that could develop into a romantic relationship send 🖤 for our muses to have had a past romance  send 🗡️ for a one-sided rivalry/grudge by one muse to the other

HI HELLO YES HI

IM A SUCKER FOR SAIX/AXEL SHIT <33333

but yes i see the vision!! i see all the visions!!! look these two are soulmates whether they want it or not okay?? i have so much i can scream about this duo they have my whole soul okay like there's SOOOO much that could be done with them!!!!

imagine they were together before they gave themselves up right??? like, stupid kids finding themselves, then getting thrown into the life that theyve got?? growing apart at the start, before one of them (prob axel lets be real) starts like whining and asking for attention again mayhaps,,,

but it's okay!! it's going to be okay!! bc at least they still have each other

except. being absorbed into a cult is harder than they thought it'd be. and not having a heart Sucks a lot more than they thought it would. there's days where keeping up the charade of their old closeness is more of a burden than a comfort rip but neither wants to admit to it, least of all to each other, bc wow talk about a dick move. that's not something you say to a friend

i love the idea of-- if they had started dating before losing their hearts-- that it was early into their relationship which made it even harder to try to resume some sense of normalcy in it. they didn't have that dynamic long enough to know how to adapt it to an utterly new environment without it cracking under the weight

bc. if i have this right, the organization members/powerful nobodies in general don't have hearts... yet. but whenever the heart is Taken the body will always try to regrow it. which is not conducive to xemnas' and ultimately xehanort's plan to use those powerful nobodies as blank vessels in which to Implant his own heart

so he creates this environment where The One Truth is that nobodies don't have hearts and can never have them again unless they regain their old ones. i could see how this would also help foster a culture where the members themselves will suppress their own perceptions and dismiss their feelings-- in essence keeping themselves in that convenient Empty stage where there is Space for a new heart

i really like the story trope of becoming the mask, and especially so in saix's case bc he had every intention of specifically Not Doing That. lea is his friend. axel is (probably) his friend. lea and their plan is what's truly important to him, what he's truly loyal to, not xemnas, and not kingdom hearts

but he didn't expect the added stress of a fraying friendship, the one thing from before saix that he counted on for support and to keep him grounded which started to feel more and more like yet another burden, and i also think he vastly underestimated how convincing and manipulative someone like xemnas could be

xemnas got to him. he saw that strained, brittle shadow of an old friendship and immediately knew what he had to offer and to become in order to get under saix's skin, and it worked, even tho i think saix must have gone a long, long time believing it hadn't

whispers iirc ik there's like. a canon reasoning he specifically gives that he kept going down this road for the sake of power but for the sake of my own ramblings/interpretation i just like thinking of it as a more Personal maybe sort of intimate takeover. doesn't want to admit to himself much less anyone else that xemnas briefly managed to convince him to replace lea with him

i think what could have very easily played a part in saix falling for xemnas' tactics is that he came into the interaction ready to despise the guy-- this was a monster. this was a villain with no remorse, no hint of humanity, and no other sides to him other than his desire for Evil (Evil which saix was already vague on the details regarding at that, which probably made it even easier for xemnas to sweep the rug out from under him, put a fun positive spin on his goals)

so i do think that even the first glimmer of Something Deeper in xemnas' behaviors and words, something that wasn't "evil", would have given saix pause, and the more it happened the more reevaluation he'd undertake in his favor even if he didn't consciously mean to

you've crossed a line.

it ends here.

i'm not going to be with you for the rest of this journey.

you're going down a path i can't follow.

i think this is the end of the line for us.

i can't take any more of this.

don't you trust me?

i've told you time and time again, this isn't you.

who are you doing this for?

if you continue acting like this, i'm leaving.

i will never forgive you for what you've done.

i've always been your biggest supporter, but this? i can't condone this.

you've lost me.

you're not who i thought you were.

there were signs, and i just didn't see them.

they tried to warn me about you, but i just didn't listen.

that wasn't a mistake. that was a choice.

so this is it, then?

you're not going to apologize?

i never thought you were that type of person.

you could have been better.

this is where we part ways.

don't you see? i'm doing this for you.

i can make things better if you just trust me.

i've trusted you far enough.

i can't cosign this behavior.

you've gone way too far.

you're just jealous of my accomplishments.

you just want to stifle my greatness.

i see darkness in you.

this is far too dangerous for me.

i'm going the other way.

i will not sit here and watch you do this.

you're going to have to go through me.

this could have gone better.

i don't want to hurt you.

what did they tell you? it was all lies!

the choices we make have consequences.

and to think, i really believed in you.

after all this time, you're leaving me?

i thought we had something special.

now i realize it was all a fantasy.

when you crossed that line, you lost me.

that's not something we can come back from.

i'm not just going to forgive you for what you did.

there are some things that just can't be forgiven.

i warned you multiple times where my limits where.

you have no regard for boundaries.

goodbye, old friend.

you will never see me again.

have fun on your journey without me.

nothing will make this right.

there's nothing you can say to convince me otherwise. my mind is made up.

i like. thinking about characters grooming each other-- dressing someone else, brushing or washing their hair, etc etc, whether out of genuine affection and tenderness or when that tenderness is feigned in the interest of drawing someone in, getting them to trust you and see you as someone kind, patient, and warm... at least some of the time. enough of the time for them to continue to turn to you when they're overwhelmed or distressed, even when it's also with a twinge of uncertainty and fear

basically for those of you who follow me through multiple blogs this is probably a familiar setup already so i'm just kinda. clasping my hands in front of me with a helpless sort of shrug bc it's Coming Up Again

The comb in Xemnas’ gloved hand is ornate and heavy, even if its veneer of silver is chipped and tarnished so heavily that it more resembles old pewter. It suits him, perhaps. There is something very old about Xemnas, and it has nothing to do with the years he’s lived. Occasionally Saix will find himself musing on the man, envisioning him as some kindly, wizened king, a relic of some time long past, and wince.

Lost in his thoughts, he snaps back into the present with his nonexistent heart in his throat when it seems that Xemnas’ grip on his hair tightens just slightly, and the effort he must expend in order to remain seated, to not preemptively flinch away, feels quite disproportionate.

“So you’ve returned,” is the other Nobody’s response, low and gentle, brimming with quiet promises. His hands slow to such an extent that Saix wonders if he’d simply imagined that earlier tension. “For only a fleeting moment, I thought perhaps you had fallen asleep.”

“Never, sir,” he is quick to refute, hoping that might be the end of it. 

a collection of lyric sentences from eminem's song temporary.

"a lot of people ask me, am i afraid of death?"

"i think what scares me the most is not being able to say all the things i want to say to you. "

"who is it?"

"i've been waiting all night for the sunrise. "

"all it takes is a new day sometimes. "

"give me a kiss, monster. "

"i love you. "

"if i could just fall asleep, i'd be lost in a dream."

"right now, it's misery."

"i just have to remember."

"i just have to remember that when a heart breaks, it's not broken forever."

"in time, i'll be fine."

"these tears are temporary. "

"how should i start? "

"just want to say... look after (name)/yourself. "

"i know i was your rock, and i still am. "

"sweetie, be strong. "

"saying goodbye is just not ever easy. "

"why are you crying? "

"baby, dry your eyes, this is not forever."

"you will get over me and move on. "

"you can play me on repeat on a song. "

"don't you dare shed a tear. "

"(name), it'll be okay. "

"i'm here. "

"i will protect you. "

"as hard as this may feel, us parting is painful. "

"you will remain strong, (name). just hang on. "

"i need you to move on. "

"time heals. "

"i know this hurts. "

"there's gonna be rainy days, and i promise you'll get through them."

"fuck it, (name), i'll be honest. "

"i knew you were going to take this the hardest. "

"i know that it's breaking your heart, it's the hardest thing i ever wrote."

"what's your favorite song?"

what else do you want from me?

i've done everything i can.

there's nothing more to be done.

i'm not done with you.

i tried, and nothing worked.

haven't i given you enough?

i think i've done enough to help.

you take and you take and you never give.

i've done more than enough for you.

that's all i can do.

i have nothing more to give you.

you don't deserve anything more.

you never thanked me.

i can't do this alone.

haven't i done enough?

i need you to be here.

you've done more harm than good.

that's it, then. there's nothing left.

we tried our best.

i can't offer anything else.

i can't give you what you need.

you expect too much from me.

i was never good enough for you.

i can't fulfill the perfect vision in your head.

i'll never be what you truly want.

you set unrealistic expectations.

i'll never be enough for you.

you want me to be something i'm not.

do you truly think so little of me?

you know i can't do that.

that's all i have to give.

it's unfair to expect that of me.

you never loved me. you loved the idea of me.

i have nothing more to say to you.

i have give you everything, and this is how you repay me?

you'll never be satisfied.

i thought you were better than this.

i knew i could never live up to your expectations.

is this what you want from me?

to you, i'm just a failure.

i'm sorry i can't be what you wanted.

that's never going to happen.

you're delusional if you think i'll do that.

sorry to disappoint.

"Where do I want to be?"

"It won't get easier."

"Where does a mind like yours wonder when it's sung to sleep?"

"I'll tell them all the story."

"Tell me so I say."

"You can't keep them all caged."

"They will fight and run away."

"Mother/father, tell me so I say."

"She/he/they can't keep them all safe."

"They will die and be afraid."

"Will you stay to listen to me sing?"

"Do you ever come to wonder if what you're looking for is within where you hold?"

"Will you stay and tell a tale?"

"Home is where we are now."

"Home is where you are."

"The hills were left quiet."

"I do not want to see."

"I could only hum a tune."

"I've been told to wait."

"But why should there be silence?"

"I can be different."

"I can't be puppeted!"

this is like a million years old and i'm posting it mostly bc time is a closed circle and so are one's fandoms apparently so my silly kh fanart is relevant to my interests again