Bunyo

The day we first met

And I wonder would I still be alive if we never met

What do you mean?

I reply taking in a breath

What could she mean by it?

Did I really change her life that much

Yeah I mean I don’t think id want to live in a life without you

But that doesn't mean you wouldn't have found someone worth living for

Yeah I guess you are right

There is a silence between us for just a moment

It almost felt peaceful but I could tell she wanted to say more

She always played with her hands when she wanted to speak more

And right now she was

But I didn’t want to force her to say it

So I waited

Id wait for as long as she needed till she was prepared

She takes a breath in before responding

I wouldn't want to live for anyone else you know?

A chuckle escaped my lips

If it helps I wouldn't want to marry anyone else

Huh? You’re not even going to say you wouldn't live for anyone else? Even if it was a lie?

I don't lie to you and i'm not going to start now

There is a pause

I cant promise you if you weren't around I wouldn't live for someone else

Id live for my family or for my dog but not someone as important as you

You said you wouldnt live for someone else

But I would have

I wanted to tell you something as important as yours was

Cause it's true

I wouldn't marry anyone else if you weren't around

She laughs

Her laugh as if the gods themselves came down and blessed her with the perfect smile

As if the angels themselves are singing when she laughs

What I would give to hear it all the time

She responds

You know for being a year older than me you do have an innocent look on love

What do you mean?

I can't explain it you just always look as if you

I think back on that moment all the time

The moment where I was so sure we would be together forever

The moment that I knew for the first time in my life that I was making the right choice

I wasn't second guessing myself or even doubting

Because I knew you would be there

I thought that wasn’t a lie

I thought we promised to be together forever

Just like in our vow

Though I supposed we promised

Till death does us part

But even I wouldn't let that stop me from loving you

So now I sit here wondering Eloise?

Did you mean what you said?

Because right now its feels like I was the reason you died

That if we never met you would still be here

Maybe it's my fault for holding you too tight?

Maybe it's my fault for not letting you go when you wanted

But you have to understand Eloise I loved you more than life itself

But you loved life more than you loved me

Im sorry it had to end this way

And i'm sorry I wasn’t as innocent as you thought

And I wish I was sorry for what I did to you

But you have to understand

You left me with no choice

And now I know you can’t leave me

Ill keep our promise and never leave you

I will take care of your grave till the day i part this life

Please forgive me my dear Eloise

Forever yours,

Iris

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