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I’m in my late 30’s and have finally wrapped my ears around Death Metal. Some of the best stuff i’ve heard has recommended by you here and on IG (shoutout Phrenelith and Cancer Void) and also what I’ve learned is called death doom (Mortiferum, the new Fossilization). It’s honestly been an immensely rewarding new venture of musical discovery, so thanks for all the great recs. I’m here for more!
What are the absolutely essential DM bands I should listen to considering the above bands mentioned?
A more broad question: what is the through-line you feel that connects the death metal that you feel has integrity?
Hope the RC/Pelican tour goes well. I am headed to Seattle this weekend for NWTF (fuck yeah, Innumerable Forms). Stoked!
Oh awesome! It’s always nice to hear I’ve hipped folks to some new tunes!
For me, all death metal roads lead back to Morbid Angel as that was the first band in that realm to click with me. I’d had close friends in junior high and high school back in the early ‘90s that were big on death metal, but it wasn’t until Domination came out that I really understood the appeal. For whatever reason, most of the classic Florida death metal stuff didn’t really hold my interest, but Morbid Angel has this twisted sense of melody that made them stick out.
As far as other crucial classics, the Swedish stuff obviously has an important place in my heart. At the Gates was a big deal for me back when Slaughter of the Soul came out. Dismember and Entombed got a lot of spins too. But in some ways I feel like Swedish death metal had its big impact in the ‘00s and ‘10s and doesn’t seem to factor into contemporary death metal as much (or at least not the stuff I listen to). The classic Finnish death metal bands, however, really seem to be having their day. If you like Mortiferum, I definitely suggest checking out Rippikoulu and the first Convulse LP. Demilich also definitely deserves credit for influencing a lot of the more interesting modern OSDM stuff.
I guess the through-line for me is stuff that still has a raw and quasi-punk edge to it. As I’ve mentioned here numerous times, I feel like the more visible / popular death metal in the early part of the 21st century either aimed for a melodic component or went the tech-death route, which wasn’t too interesting to me, so I’ve really enjoyed bands like Undergang and Pissgrave making death metal scummy and feral again. Even the more adroit modern death metal like Necrot and Blood Incantation have the DIY / punk gene in their lineage, and I think that’s what makes them exciting to my ears.
Have fun at NWTF! Should be a blast!
Every Record I Own - Day 875: Various Artists Cosmic American Music: Motel California
Here we have the 2024 follow up to Numero Group's initial compilation of long-lost private press nuggets of late '60s / early '70s psychedelic-steeped country music, Wayfaring Strangers: Cosmic American Music. Like its predecessor, Motel California is a collection of songs from the lysergic countercultural alternative to the Nashville country scene. And like Wayfaring Strangers, it's highly unlikely you've heard of a single name on the comp, even if every song has that comforting familiarity woven into its Americana fabric. I mean, you can't tell me that "Second Look" by Jim Spencer doesn't sound at least a little bit like The Stones' "Dead Flowers."
A large part of the charm of this stuff resides in the notion that there are these small-run LPs and 45s somewhere out there with these modest songs etched into their grooves, just waiting to be rediscovered by nerds like myself who have exhausted their Flying Burrito Brothers and New Riders of the Purple Sage LPs. Is any of this stuff gonna change your life? Absolutely not. Hell, even Numero Group didn't even deem this stuff worthy to repress in its original form. And that's fine. We probably don't need to hear the entire recorded output of Country Spice, even if "Clouds" is a pretty sweet little fix of twangy pop.
But here's the sad thing: in 2026, I can't help but wonder how easy it would be to feed a bunch Gram Parson's material to AI and ask it to crank out a collection of vintage alt-country knock-offs. How much longer are we gonna be able to enjoy these kinds of collections of obscure deep cuts before we start growing suspicious of its authenticity?
For the time being, I still get a kick out of these compilations. But I really hope the tech bros don't ruin this stuff too.

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Every Record I Own - Day 874: Various Artists Aloha Got Soul (Soul, AOR, & Disco in Hawai'i 1979-1985)
My dad got stationed in Hawai'i back in 1982. The whole family up and moved from Washington DC to Oahu shortly after I turned five. We spent the first several weeks staying at the Hale Koa Hotel in Waikiki--a hotel designated for active duty military--before settling in the then-sleepy beach town of Kailua on the windward side of the island. Some of my earliest memories involve our brief stay in Waikiki--the busy crosswalks, the city lights after sunset, the bustling street markets.
I started collecting music around the age of 8 or 9. I'd ask for cassettes for my birthday and Christmas. Saved up allowances. My first purchases were '80s FM radio rock staples--stuff like Survivor and Chicago. As adolescence loomed, I dabbled in hair metal. And then I found punk and everything changed.
Punk was undisciplined and anti-aspirational. They sang about things other than falling in love and having a good time. It screamed authenticity at a time when I was beginning to suspect that most things were kinda bullshit. It wasn't music you'd hear on the radio or when you were out shopping at department stores, which meant it wasn't the ubiquitous soundtrack of Top 40, reggae, and island music I was used to on Oahu.
Skip ahead a decade or so. I'm an adult living on the mainland. Still buying hardcore records, but coming to terms with the fact that a lot of "punk" seems to be kinda bullshit. My musical horizons expanded. I learned about Fela Kuti, who was way more of a rebel than any of the mohawked artists I listened to. Krautrock was way more out there than any of the alternative rock I championed in my younger years. Free jazz was as abrasive and violent as the noise artists I liked.
And let's be real. The handful of punk bands I saw in Hawai'i were passing through on their way to Japan and Australia. They were international artists. Meanwhile in Waikiki, you had artists like the ones featured on Aloha Got Soul just jamming away in the various hotel bars and nightclubs around town knowing this was the ceiling to their popularity.
Sure, maybe some of this stuff was basically musical wallpaper. It was constructed to get people to shake their hips on the dance floor but it was also designed to sit in the background while sunburned tourists drank Mai Tais at the bar. But I'll be damned if Roy & Roe's "Just Don't Come Back" doesn't feature one of the tightest and funkiest drum and bass breaks I've ever heard. Or how about the pastoral prog vibes and freaky synth solo in Brother Noland's "Kawaihae"? Even if this was meant to be tourist-friendly fare, there are little hints of the musicians letting their freak flags fly sprinkled throughout the album.
I arrived in Hawai'i smack dab in the middle of the musical era captured on this compilation. And while during my kamaʻāina years this kind of music felt like it was designed to placate everyone, it now feels like a time capsule to a city's nightlife. Was it music for tourists? Sure. But it was also music for the locals. It was a reflection of broader international music trends imbued with some local musical traditions. It was its own little scene operating on a tiny rock in the middle of the Pacific Ocean in the era before the internet. And that isolation gives this stuff more flavor than anything offered up by the bland SoCal skate punk bands that passed through Honolulu on their world tours.
Hey, Brian! I'm a huge fan of all your music, but I really enjoyed reading your book recently. I was wondering if you had any plans to write another, at some point in the future. Cheers!
Oh wow! Nice to know there are still copies of Second Chair floating around out there. Thanks for taking the time to read it and thanks for the kind words!
I have a second novel tentatively titled The Holy Coil that I’ve been working for the last 13 years. Been talking with an interested literary agent but in a bit of a holding pattern at present as we both have other things in our queue to wrap up. Hoping to have some news on it by the end of the year but we’ll see what happens.
In the meantime, I wrote a little more about it here.
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Every Record I Own - Day 873: The Album Leaf Lines in a Leaf
This is a favorite of 2025.
Like The Texas Chain Saw Massacre soundtrack, it feels a little like cheating to include this short LP by the San Diego project The Album Leaf in my list of favorite albums from 2025. These recordings capture some of the earliest solo recordings by songwriter / composer Jimmy LaValle, dating back to the project's genesis in 1998. But for whatever reason, these recordings weren't available to the public until they were unearthed and reissued by The Numero Group in 2025.
The Album Leaf was in my orbit of musical peers back in the early '00s. My old band would crash at the apartment of their guitarist's girlfriend when we'd pass through San Diego on tour. We'd occasionally hang out with Jimmy and Drew when we were in town and even wound up on a couple of shows together. Yet somehow I never wound up with an Album Leaf record in my collection until last year.
When this limited edition hand-printed LP of early four-track recordings was announced, I was intrigued. By the time The Album Leaf were on my radar, they were a polished enterprise that had flown to Iceland to record at the Sigur Ros studio. I was curious to hear what LaValle's work would sound like in its rawest form.
And in a way, Lines in a Leaf really does sound like the genesis of something much grander. The opening track "2145 E St." is more of a sketch than a song, sounding like a hazy late-night attempt at getting a song idea documented for later workshopping before sleep sets in. In fact, much of side A sounds unfinished, like something meant to be shared with a bandmate for their input. It's evocative in its stark and unrefined state, but it relies on the three tracks of side B to demonstrate the potential of these rough ideas.
Side B opener "Writing in the Sand" is the real highlight here, a study in the most reductive brand of slowcore that taps into the murky and repetitive beauty of artists like Grouper. "Knots in a String of Beads" taps into a similar energy, sounding like an early post-rock composition dubbed off a college radio station and bootlegged a half dozen times. Album closer "A Crumpled Piece of Paper, Slowly Unfolding" is a simple, graceful piano piece of humble beauty that recasts the scrappy front-end of the record in a whole new light. There is a potential here that gradually reveals itself over the course of the album, and when I flip the record back over to side A, I find myself hearing phantom melodies in the background of these sparse recordings, as if picking up on LaValle's grander ambitions left unfinished and unattended in the unused tracks of his Tascam cassette machine.
Sometimes the greater power resides in the things that are only suggested or insinuated. It feels a little weird to keep bringing up The Texas Chain Saw Massacre in relation to sublime sounds of The Album Leaf, but just as Tobe Hooper's classic horror movie derives power from implied violence occurring just outside our vantage point, so does Lines in a Leaf flourish in its willingness to provide the bare minimum of sonic information, allowing the listener's imagination to fill out the songs with their own internal orchestra.

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Every Record I Own - Day 872: Geese Getting Killed
This is a favorite of 2025.
I'm generally adverse to hype in the indie world. I don't think there's been a "hot" album in that sphere that I've enjoyed since The National's High Violet. Generally speaking, the more people are talking, the less likely I'm listening.
There was no shortage of discourse surrounding Geese in the final months of 2025. On the one hand, you had folks like Elton John and Lee Ronaldo of Sonic Youth heaping praise on the young New York City band, celebrating their ability to make the often-cold world of art rock feel soulful and human. On the flip side, you had folks like my friends chalking them up as industry plants that sound like "a shitty Radiohead with white boy blues riffs."
Personally, I think Geese have arrived at a sound that's worthy of all the praise. I don't love every single song off Getting Killed, but the bulk of the album deserves all the accolades. My simplest assessment of Geese is that they sound like a New York proto-punk band from the late '60s / '70s taking a stab at the classic era of Rolling Stones. But even that description frequently falls apart. Hell, the first song on the album---the rowdy and ramshackle "Trinidad"---reminds me of the first track off This Heat's Deceit album... a tape-spliced collage of post-punk's jagged spikes and fits of contained rage. But then the album segues into the approachable balladry of "Cobra." The band has gone so far as to admit that the opening one-two punch was meant to establish the polarity of the album by putting the most abrasive track off the album next to their most digestible pop tune.
From there, the album zones in on a tighter spectrum of stylistic choices. Throughout Getting Killed, you're likely to pick up on a few key influences. There's certainly some Talking Heads worship in tracks like "Husbands," some stripped-down Television on "Islands of Men," some Velvet Underground peeking through songs like "Half Real"---but the more you listen to Getting Killed, the more reference points you're bound to hear, until you eventually realize that Geese don't really sound like anyone but themselves.
You can't really talk about Geese without talking about their singer Cameron Winter, a vocalist whose particular timbre, vibrato, and delivery looms so large that one's enjoyment of the band could easily boil down to whether or not you're buying what Winter is selling. Like some strange amalgam of Thom York and Tom Verlaine, Winter stretches cryptic lyrical snippets into strange proportions, dragging a loaded but ultimately curious statement like "all people in times of war must go down to circus" across multiple measures, disregarding any obvious cadence or rhythm, dragging it out so that every word becomes isolated and divorced from the larger statement. The band is equally elastic, with instruments dropping in and out of the mix, drum fills staggering the arrival of the next section, evolving verses, devolving choruses.
One gets the sense that, much like the Stones, Geese never play a song the same way twice. During their peak, The Rolling Stones would start writing songs when they arrived at the recording studio in the morning (or realistically, late afternoon, or midnight) and then burn through fifty takes until they captured the right feeling, even if that particular iteration of the song would never be recreated. There's a looseness to the songs on Getting Killed, as if the members are still trying out ideas, that harkens back to Mick and Keith circa '68-'71. And of course, there are a few classic rock blues riffs to be heard on songs like "Horses" and the title track that only reinforce that comparison.
To be fair, maybe we don't need a bunch of 23-year-olds reaching for the heights of the world's greatest rock band or harkening back to the endless cool of '70s NYC in 2025. But you know what? It felt pretty damn refreshing in the modern sea of modest bedroom pop, stoic reverb draped -gaze bands, poptimist carpetbaggers, and stoned everything-and-the-kitchen-sink appropriators. By the time the album arrives at the frantic piano and drum duel of "Long Island City Here I Come," you get the sense that Geese have opted to do the most polarizing thing they can think of in 2025---to be a confident, soulful rock band that doesn't reek of overt earnestness or formulaic marketability.
Every Record I Own - Day 871: Vulture Feather It Will Be Like Now
This is a favorite of 2025.
Of all the new records I heard last year, the sophomore album by Northern California post-hardcore trio Vulture Feather had the most immediate impact on me. From the opening bars of "Blood Knot" where a simple drum beat, steady singular guitar octave, gritty bass chords, and Hüsker Dü-like vocals lock into a repeating pattern of Lungfish-indebted cycling minimalism, every aspect of It Will Be Like Now felt like it was deliberately fashioned to appease my yearning for a band that harkens back to DC post-hardcore / Revolution Summer-style emo while simultaneously existing as a modern, relevant, and mature rock outfit.
By the time "Blood Knot" finished, I was almost a little sad. It was everything I loved about the '90s wrapped up in one perfect song, but what a shame to put such a great song first. Surely a band couldn't make that formula work for an entire album. Well, Vulture Feather rises to the challenge. Every song is cut from the same cloth: a guitarist trying to play as few notes as possible, a bass player providing the chord progression, a singer channeling Bob Mould, Daniel Higgs, and Michael Gira, a drummer who plays with metronomic understated grace, and a general sense of well-honed melancholic introspection on par with Jawbreaker's saddest jams.
And every song is absolutely perfect.
Every Record I Own - Day 870: Albumen s/t
This is a favorite of 2025.
Albumen is a one-off studio project initiated by experimental trumpet player Greg Kelley and bassist Mike Watt (Minutemen, fIREHOSE, Dos, etc.). It began as a casual exercise---Kelley was sitting on some solo trumpet pieces and Watt offered to add some bass to the recording. The results were promising. These duo pieces were then passed along to Seattle free-blues ensemble Hound Dog Taylor's Hand for additional instrumentation. The result is a full-length of milky, ritualistic, otherworldly instrumental pieces that unfurl like some strange fever dream. Patterns arise and devolve, clatter resolves into calm only to descend back into clamor, large swaths of blissed-out drones battle with jagged bursts of percussion. The overall vibe is like navigating an exotic night market in a foreign town after someone slipped a heavy sedative and a mild hallucinogen into your drink.
Every Record I Own - Day 869: Phrenelith Ashen Womb
This is a favorite of 2025.
Desolate Endscape---the debut album by Copenhagen death metal unit Phrenelith---was one of those rare records that cracked open a whole new music world for me. Along with Undergang's Misantropologi, Desolate Endscape felt like a unique statement in the death metal world of 2016. Whereas 21st century death metal seemed to be either geared towards mainstream acceptance (see: deathcore) or greater extremes---playing faster, tuning lower, getting proggier, becoming tighter to the point of sounding mechanical, or, conversely, pushing the production into nearly unlistenable territories---bands like Phrenelith and Undergang made records that were proudly devoid of frills or flexes and simply rocked.
Furthermore, the Danish scene seemed way more interested in the DIY underground metal world than pandering to the broader scene of big corporate festivals, glossy magazine spreads, and radio airplay. That scrappiness is a huge part of Phrenelith's appeal. I got into death metal through hardcore. Bands like Rorschach and Acme obviously listened to metal, and as my appreciation for those bands grew, so did my appreciation for their source material. I just wanted a band with Morbid Angel's chops and Assück's hardcore approach.
Ashen Womb is Phrenelith's third album and it maintains its dedication to nasty, catchy, pulverizing old school death metal. Like Desolate Endscape, it has the rugged and ragged appeal of a band that sounds like they're accustomed to playing in basements and dive bars, but the music far more thought-out, articulate, and nuanced than your average troglodyte band. It's punk in spirit, but thoroughly metal in discipline.
It's funny... now that hardcore is having it's moment in the mainstream with bands like Turnstile, I'm having to find the raw sounds and community-building networks that initially drew me to punk in the metal scene. What's happening in Copenhagen with bands like Phrenelith, Undergang, Hyperdontia, Taphos, Sulphurous, and Deiquisitor ultimately reminds me more of the heavy hardcore scene of the '90s that I loved than... say... Knocked Loose.
Every Record I Own - Day 868: Rose City Band Sol Y Sombra
This is a favorite from 2025.
I'll buy pretty much anything Ripley Johnson puts out. Whether it's the driving drone rock of Wooden Shjips, the motorized haze of Moon Duo, or the cosmic country of Rose City Band, I'm just generally a fan of Johnson's dreamy vocals and psychedelic guitar playing.
Rose City Band has always owed a debt to Grateful Dead in the sense that their rootsy folk rock has that tendency to levitate into extended lysergic solos, though their "jam" moments never completely drift off into uncharted territories. But the nod to Garcia and Co. is pretty apparent in the album's opening track "Lights on the Way," which sounds awfully similar in the chorus department to the Dead's "Touch of Grey."
But knowing how Dead-adverse people can be, perhaps it's better to say Rose City Band sound like a more narcotic Flying Burrito Brothers, or a more reverb-and-delay-soaked New Riders of the Purple Sage. Or maybe it just sounds like Wooden Shjips with some pedal steel and Bakersfield guitar thrown in for some country flavor.
Either way, Sol Y Sombra is a great record for weekend wake-and-bake mornings around the house. Spark one up, brew some coffee, and clean your house while these dusty troubadours take you to outer space.

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Every Record I Own - Day 867: Oust Rather Be A Fuck Up
This is a favorite from 2025.
According to Cvlt Nation, the best d-beat album of 2025 was Nisemono's self titled record. Oust's Rather Be A Fuck Up didn't even crack their list. But hey... art isn't a competition and I don't want to fall into the trap of placing one artist over the other, though I do wonder if Nisemono won the honor of being "the best" because it features members of notable NYC punk bands L.O.T.I.O.N. and Warthog whereas Oust lack the notable resumes and reside on a different continent. Maybe it's just a matter of proximity and profile, not quality?
Then again, I'm also not a rabid consumer of d-beat hardcore, so maybe I'm missing some of the nuance. Oust just happened to cross my path when we both played Roadburn Festival in early 2025, and for me, it ticked off all the boxes of what I wanted out of a lean-and-mean punk band. Bonus points for the album coming out on Jos from Seein Red's record label, Autoreverse. It fell within my orbit and stayed within my gravitational field, while Nisemono was just some blip on my radar.
Every major city has a d-beat punk band, and while their technical abilities, energy, and songwriting chops are sure to vary, the general sound is well established and resides within an attainable realm for relatively untrained players, so arguing who did it best feels pretty silly.
Honestly, I think the significance and importance of a band like Oust has less to do with how their performance compares to their peers and way more to do with their position within their community. My favorite hardcore bands have almost always been the bands I got to see live and engage with. So while I understand that Agnostic Front's Victim In Pain might be a bigger deal than, say, Undertow's At Both Ends, I didn't have the experience of screaming along with Roger Miret at CBGBs. But I did get to participate in some truly transcendent Undertow shows in my formative teenage years. And consequently, Undertow will always be, in my mind, the more important hardcore band.
Obviously, I'm not saying that the only bands that matter are the ones in your backyard. Hell, I'm advocating for a Dutch band here. But I do sometimes miss the localized scenes and fandoms of the pre-internet world, especially in musical realms like hardcore where the live experience is arguably more important than the recordings. Rather than wonder who wore it better, I wish there was a little more emphasis on engaging with the artists in our immediate communities.
Every Record I Own - Day 866: The Texas Chain Saw Massacre OST
This is a favorite from 2025.
It feels a little like cheating to include a soundtrack from 1974 in my list of favorite albums from 2025. But here's the thing: the soundtrack to Texas Chain Saw Massacre has been on every horror movie soundtrack buff's wishlist for decades. Unfortunately, the score, composed by director Tobe Hooper and sound crew member Wayne Bell, was applied to the overall mix of the film and, supposedly, never preserved as its own independent recording. So unless you wanted to hear the creepy proto-industrial soundscape with the accompanying audio of screaming women, roaring chainsaws, and cackling redneck psychopaths, you were shit out of luck.
I'm not sure how Waxwork Records managed to extricate the clamorous experimental soundtrack from the film's final mix, but they managed to crack the code. Even in this day and age of noise barons like Merzbow and Wolf Eyes, this strange and unnerving collage of heavily manipulated instruments and found-object racket crafted by two film school students with minimal musical background still sounds completely alien and terrifying.
Then again, pretty much everything about The Texas Chain Saw Massacre is a magical anomaly. Not only did Tobe Hooper never make another movie with the same paralyzing degree of terror, he never made another movie that was as visually compelling. So much of what makes the film work is that it's shot on location with actors who either faded into the background or hammed it up to such a degree that you were genuinely convinced that there was something mentally wrong with them. Hooper's subsequent films always had a bit of Hollywood set design blandness to them. But part of Texas Chain Saw's enduring power is that even when you remind yourself mid-viewing that this is just a movie, you're still a little freaked out that these weirdos felt compelled to make something so disturbing and misanthropic. Throw in the subtext of vegetarianism, rural vs urban life, late stage capitalism, and the dark end of the '60s optimism, and the film feels less like grisly exploitation and more like a harsh and stark reflection of America's history of violent desperation.
It's a movie that shouldn't work beyond a purely visceral level, but it somehow tapped into something powerful and lasting. Similarly, the atonal drones and scraping metal sounds of the soundtrack may have been a last ditch effort by a filmmaker who was short on resources, but conviction and passion were enough to turn a few tools and a rudimentary grasp of sound design into a piece of standalone art that nerds like me still celebrate fifty years later.