Finding out that I've got some blockages + hang ups about speaking + being heard. The only time I think I enunciate properly is when I'm shouting it feels like. Otherwise I mumble so badly. I'm trying to get myself to unlearn the quieting. To work out the strain on my throat + jaw.
Some day I'll not feel so scared and it will not hurt so much.
They don't teach you how to stop being meek when you've been emotionally beaten down to be small your entire childhood.
The safety from being unseen no longer serves me. I want to tell my past self to learn to shout more, speak up more, sing more, move more.
It's safe now, despite what anyone else is saying around you. It's safer to speak up to be seen. You cannot be helped or help others if you don't exist!!!
Ariel had her voice taken in exchange for a fantasy!!! That was a message to NEVER GIVE UP YOUR VOICE FOR ANYONE. THAT IS YOUR POWER. You silly soft broken thing. Take it back!!!!
In time you will remember + feel what its like to be within yourself fully + be able to speak + be heard clearly.
