C-C-C-Curly-Haired Crazed

Hurts Makes me question myself Am I pretty enough? It's my face, isn't it? It's because I don't smile enough. Do I smell? Am I too smart? Too dumb? Too crass? Too honest? Too much of a liar? Am I self-absorbed? Too introverted? Forget it. Am I really too much? Every guy I've ever been with has said that I'm too much. I have high expectations and I should let someone love me the way I need to. So basically I made them feel inadequate as well. Maybe I won't ever be good enough. At least not on this side of life. That sucks. So is being good enough even worth it? What does it even take? I try to get better. But what happens? Life. Boredom. Anxiety Distractions--inner and outer. Coming into the world alone is guaranteed. Leaving the world alone is guaranteed. Going this life alone is a toss up. I'd rather be with my husband. Who knows if the universe will allow that to happen. I'm getting tired just typing this. I'm out. ✌🏾️

It's been 16 years into a new millennium, yet old, hateful tactics against People of Color (POC) remain a problem. It's a problem when POC have to concern themselves with false, unfair, animalistic comparisons and stereotypes. It's a problem POC can't be themselves without it being related to thugs, gang culture, or deemed cool enough to be taken from them. It's a problem, when POC can't convene without law enforcement showing up in military gear. Why is that necessary? These are US Civilians. These are Americans, who happen to have a different skin color and maybe different customs. So what!? What does it matter? Why do differences matter!? The bigger disturbance comes from law enforcement standing there, and how do does one expect POC feel, especially when so many police officers have killed POC. How would one feel if there were a few hundred members of law enforcement standing in a standard battle formation when convening with likeminded individuals? Your response is an indicator of your privilege. And that's not a low low. Unfortunately, this is the reality of today and yesterday. POC just want people like law enforcement, racists, hate groups, and the like to STOP targeting them. To stop targeting them with unfair violence, stereotyping, and volition. If they didn't look at POC like rabid animals, then they wouldn't treat them as such. If they saw people just trying to make it, just like them, then they would treat POC with humanity. Then police get mad when POC say "F$&! The Police," and try to claim that all police aren't bad. Be that as it may, but all POC aren't looking to put another individual in harm. All POC aren't trying to take anything away from them. All POC aren't discreditable or dispensable. Ascendants of POC built this country, and they treat POC like they signed up to come over here. POC are here now inhabiting the land, as they were urged to do from the doctrine indoctrinated once they were stripped of their homes, customs, language, and civil amenities and rights. Why be mad!? Why have so much hatred toward them? Instead of trying to treat POC like they're a problem, treat them like a human.

It’ll all happen in due time if it’s supposed to happen, but it’s interesting to run across this video to hear this man’s perspective. There are valid points in this video for sure.

Talking about Nikki broke up with him. He did that. lol

I will forever and always love you.

This statement right here though! "There's plenty of room in the world for mediocre men. There is no room for mediocre women." -Madam Secretary S2E2