had some shit to say.

i wish someone would tell me what to do, or even care how i feel.

i’m so fucking embarrassed of myself it’s a humiliation ritual every time i step outside or look in a mirror.

at least if i died young it’d be a tragedy and people would wonder what i could’ve been. i’ve been alive *just* long enough to know the answer is nothing, and no one, AND alone.

is it a neurodivergent/trans/body image problem- or is it a societal problem that wouldn't exist if women were allowed to exist without alterations.

why is it radical to have body hair, not wear makeup or do your hair everyday, and wear clothes for comfort over style? why does NOT doing those things detract from femininity, but the performance solidifies it?