you're a faded moon

being mentally ill is so embarrasing how can you explain to a normal person that you had to psych yourself up for half an hour to like get off the floor

god i’m raging we were fucking ROBBED of a finale that starts with sam and dean trying to be normal but they can’t and dean is in such awful mourning but refuses to acknowledge it but sam forces him to address it and then we get a the night we met lord huron montage with flashbacks to their significant moments and dean realizing that he’s in love with cas and they summon cas back from the empty with jack’s help and the scene echoes the scene in lazarus rising and dean FINALLY speaks his truth and they touch foreheads and we get a verbal callback of like “you deserve to be saved too” and jack resurrects all the people chuck took from them like OG bobby and OG charlie and kevin and linda etc. and then we get a soft epilogue of them in winchester’s roadhouse having a big family dinner with everybody and claire and jack meet and hang out and dean and cas share a soft look and and sam and dean are finally free of their codependency and maybe like. OH maybe sam pulls dean aside and is like “i think i’m gonna propose to eileen” and that’s what prompts their convo of like “i’m so proud of you” and their arc resolves itself. and jack narrates but at the end he’s like “i decided to give up chuck’s powers. no one needs those powers…people just deserve freedom. and i think i just wanna be a kid for a while. after all i’m only three years old.” and the last scene is them all laughing and having a good time over dinner and they’re happy and at peace god thinking about this as the finale makes me go feral.

the first feeling he EVER FELT was LOVE. FUCKED UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SICK IN THE HEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AND THEN LOVE AND COMPASSION DEFINED HIS ENTIRE EXISTENCE!!!!!! ABSOLUTE MADNESS LUV!!!!! INSANITY!!!!

so the original plan at the end of season 5 was to reveal cas as being God all along. which would have meant that the past two seasons of frankly unbearable sexual tension would have actually occurred between mr dean winchester and THE canonical abrahamic God,,, dean winchester looked capital letter GOD in the eye and said ur so sexy aha ! I am not gonna let u die a virgin wink wonk ;) what a timeline that would have been. supernatural is the ONLY show