Greyson

Diary .8

Hi frank

I have a couple things to talk about, I started my new job and I don’t really like it. Nothing wrong with it. I just hate working.

Things are going really well with my boyfriend, and with my life overall although my mental health is still poor, it’s been poor since I was 11

I’ve had anxiety my entire life, I have memories of having full and hyperventilating panic attack at 6

Got depression at 11 and ptsd at 13/14 now I’m 20 and i still feel broken

Thinking about making more content about 3Ds

Bye Frank 

Diary .7

Hi Frank

Laying in bed reading Sam Winchester x reader smut watching my fav YouTube and eating a bacon cheeseburger

(I don’t usually eat a lot of meat, but I’m on my period so it doesn’t count )

I honestly can’t wait to take a everything shower and just relax and listen to Lana and Ethel 

I really want a new summer Friday’s lip balm and one of the rhode blushes

I watch the new Call of Duty trailer and I can’t stop thinking about it

(ghost looks so good)

“White trash dick, but I love him to death”

Diary .6

Dear Frank

Keeping it short, but sweet,I had a great time visiting Mike

(my boyfriend)

We spent most of the two days in bed or enjoying the weather on the front porch, he got me some beautiful flowers ~ he also dressed up for me, I love when he wears a balaclava it’s so hot <3

Tomorrow I am starting a new case at my job so I’m spending the night relaxing and doing self care 

(Also the pic is one of me from a couple days ago)

Diary .5

Hi Frank

I’ve been changing my outlook on a lot

I love being a gloomy girl and I’ve been tapping into my divine feminine, I thinks it’s taken me a while to realize that my true feminine form isn’t bubblegum pink

(not that there isn’t anything wrong with bubblegum pink immunity I love it. It’s just not for me )

I love my dark gloomy life and vibe and I’m ready to embrace it in a feminine way

I can cry or think about my melancholic memories, and still be putting my energy into feminine beauty maxing



Bye Frank 🤍🪽🎼🐾

Diary .4

Hi Frank

I went to the thrift today and the antique store. I only got a shirt and the crucifix.

Honestly, the only good thing in my life right now is my mom my best friend and my boyfriend

I’ve started cutting again, not because I want to die just because I like the pain. Honestly, I’ve always been a masochist and I like the control it gives.

My PTSD episodes are getting bad as well, every nighttime routine is a battle

I can’t wait for my job to start. As excited as I am for this job mostly just for the paycheck. I know I can’t do healthcare long-term.

I think I want to reevaluate in the fall, I’ve always wanted to go into welding and I might actually take that up

My boyfriend lets me do puppy play with him, he seems actually into it, letting me be a little stupid puppy

I’ll probably make a whole separate post on that though 

My bed

I don’t want to die I just want pain

Diary .3

Dear Frank

My boyfriend helped me alter a bag to be one of those cute antler ones that I’ve seen all over Pinterest, I love it

The image that I’m using is of my axes and some roses, he got me a week ago

He wore a balaclava for me last night

 (it was hot )

And tonight my mom was going to help me with stuff for my new job.

It’s a nice rainy day and all I want to do is lie in bed and listen to the rain