brokenandtornn

It’s a sad thing to think that I’ve grown numb to this. So many have come and gone. I let them in and they go silent.

Wow, just wow. 9 months, you just disappear after 9 months. Do you even realize the mental strain you’ve put on me? The countless days I’ve spent looking at a screen hoping I see your name pop up? Did you even realize how much I truly cared? I really would have been your biggest supporter. I would’ve supported through the rest of your military career. I would have supported you through your future career. I would have loved to get to know your kids. Hell maybe even start my own family with you. Have a blended family. I feel betrayed. I put so much into what we had, and you backed out. Do you even realize how much that hurts? I guess I’ll never understand how someone, who says they love someone, can just up and delete them out of their life just like that. Not even a goodbye.

I’m really hating myself now, because you have put in my head that I’m not good enough. That I might have done something wrong. But I’ll never know because you shut off all types of communication.

What I really hate most of all right now, is that I still have hope that you’ll answer. Even though I know you never will.