Norcal 🌿

One

You weren't ready to dance when I was

You let my hand go in the essence of a mosh pit and I've been lost since

Two

The night you left I fell asleep on the floor of my shower

I was so broken

I fell to my knees and asked God if he could take me

Three

You would have let him take me

Four

I was willing to give up a part of me for you

I was willing to compromise my dreams for you

I was ready to be the person you needed

You never really needed me the way I needed you to

Five

I talked to my grandmother this morning and

She asked me where the princess she remembered raising went

She asked me how I could be good for anyone if I wasn't good for me

She asked me if I were looking for kings who were looking for queens

And how somewhere along the way I lost myself so they all missed me

Six

You loved me the way my father always loved my mother and I no longer accept men with conditional traits

Seven

As a woman I am obligated to continue loving

As a man you are eager to continue lusting

I was made gracefully with spiritual glitter and faithful glue

I was given wings that you tried to cut through

I was born with a voice that you tried to silence and a body that you tried to shame me of whenever spilling our love into someone else's

It took me a while to see that, someone like you doesn't deserve a heart that only someone like myself was willing to offer

Eight

I'm starting to find myself

And while picking up the pieces to my unfinished puzzle I'm realizing that you were never meant to fit the picture

Nine

You left scars on my skin that will never let me forget what love isn't

Ten

You were wrong about me

You said I could never live without you

You thought I'd stick around for you to figure out how beautiful we could be

But I've planted scriptures in your palms that no one else will ever understand but all will see and

Then they'll wonder what happened

Then they'll ask about me

Tell them how I used to hold on because I loved you enough to never let you forget me

Then let them know that I've become forgiving and you've grown to resent me

I've grown from every verse I've wrote and every word you've spoke and you've learned my love made itself permanent on its own

You never were into practicing what you preached but I've decided it's okay that you let me go too