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1. Seventeen girlie -

Scoups, Jeonghan, Joshua, Jun, Hoshi, Wonwoo, Woozi, The8, Mingyu, DK, Seungkwan, Vernon, Dino.

2. Lover Seventeen -

Scoups, Jeonghan, Joshua, Jun, Hoshi, Wonwoo, Woozi, The8, Mingyu, DK, Seungkwan, Vernon, Dino.

3. Seventeen as an act of love -

HIP-HOP UNIT, PERFORMANCE UNIT, VOCAL UNIT

4. Seventeen as ghibli boys -

95s line, 96s line, 97s line, maknae line

5. Being by the side of Seventeen -

Scoups, Jeonghan, Joshua, Jun, Hoshi, Wonwoo, Woozi, The8, Mingyu, DK, Seungkwan, Vernon, Dino.

6. Loving Seventeen -

Scoups, Jeonghan, Joshua, Jun, Hoshi, Wonwoo, Woozi, The8, Mingyu, DK, Seungkwan, Vernon, Dino.

Seventeen as Japanese Philosophy

7. Seventeen as a home -

Scoups, Jeonghan, Joshua, Jun, Hoshi, Wonwoo, Woozi, The8, Mingyu, DK, Seungkwan, Vernon, Dino.

OT13 -

Seventeen as a song by wave to earth

Seventeen as a song by cigarette after sex

Seventeen as different shades of blue

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"please don't leave already, my heart isn't full yet."

"because dreams don't go on that long"

before you could even think of holding that hand, it held you, helping you to get up and hold more tightly. he made you walk outside with him, outside of that ancient shelter you've always thought was protecting you.

it was a bright and sunny morning outside. golden sunshine falling on the grass field, making it shimmer as if someone freshcut them to even them out. subtly shivering breeze brushing your face with making your tears drift towards the lake not so far from the tree. which was weird because you never noticed it, and thought it was nighttime. it has always been nighttime whenever you're here, shrouded in fog and darkness.

"let's run there."

pointing at the big olive tree standing near the lake wonwoo looked at you, tightening his grip on his hand. and started running there after a while, as by looking at your face, he could read you were gonna run there too.

while both of you were running, you were just looking at him. he was smiling through the whole run and was looking at you time to time, leaving you wondering how he ended up finding you here. you kept looking around and at him. his loose white shirt was dancing in waves in the back, so was his hair.

reaching under the tree, you both stopped, panting. trying to catch your breath, you sat on the grass. wonwoo stood a foot away from you, hands on his hips, heaving. then he came towards you, sat beside, while gazing upon your hands that have been bracing you to get hold of yourself and the one he was holding the whole time while you both were running.

"you know! we can run like this sometimes. everytime you come here, we can go for a run. you'll choose the path, and i'll choose the wind. you don't have to call me. i'll know when you'll come and i'll take you outside of that place."

then he lies down on the grass, having his palms cushioning his head, staring at the leaves of the tree, which are dancing with this sunny cold breeze in the lakeside. and so you lie down too, similarly, but putting your hands on your belly.

"komorebi,"

he uttered, taking a glance at you.

"it's called komorebi, right? these golden sun rays filter through the leaves and reach you. i'll only call it komorebi when it reaches to your skin to kiss, and i'll get to see it happening before me. i'll abstractly paint that everytime back home to not forget and come back to you, with you, here."

you kept looking at him talking because you couldn't utter a single word, as if they all escaped you. all you could do was listen to him and feel the tranquility he brought in few seconds. suddenly he held your hand next to him, up gently, admiring while staring at the back of it, tracing something invisible.

" i hope you'll always allow me to take you on a short run like this. so we can rest a while and catch our breath together. i'll always find ways to come to you. and don't think of it as a dream. because-"

an empty steel vase toppled onto the floor that you bought yesterday kept on the table near the window due to the wind leading the curtains to hit it, stirring you from a devoted sleep. the cold gusts kept striking you on the face, making you realize it was the same with him there. as you were thinking to get off to pick up the vase, you noticed that the hand which he was holding was clenched into a fist with a note crumpled in it, as if you were grabbing it to fuse it inside your skin. it had something written on it with an oil pen, saying

"what is it, my love?"

he asked as he puts his palm onto your cheeks to look at those eyes better and read them once again, leaves you wondering how easy it is for him. how easy it is for him to be gentle with you whereas no one ever could be like that. at least not so spontaneously.

you've always been a reserved girl. a quieter one who always takes a step back. not because you're an afraid being, but because that's how you learned to save yourself. you are like a writer, but only in her head, always screaming and shouting, but lets nothing out. you've always thought it'd be difficult for him to stick with you, and also you might be wasting his time. but goddamn he always proves you wrong. so this time, today, you chose to be nicer. you chose to hold him tighter for couple more hours to let him know you are open to be vulnerable, finally.

" i know you've important stuffs to attend tomorrow, but can you please leave a little later today? I can't believe i'm saying this and maybe i'm sounding so stupid too. but i guess i'm tired of making you feel alone too."

the furrow in his face disappeared in seconds. you could see how his eyes got warmed as if all the heavyweights just flew.

"i could easily spend the entire night here if you'd want me to. and no, it’s not stupid. in fact, i've been eager to hear this, and you know that very well too. don’t you? i also know that you feel guilty for acting this way, for distancing yourself when i ask you to be open with me, to be vulnerable with me. but you know what? that’s simply a part of who you are, and it makes complete sense. it's not your fault. you don’t make me feel isolated or lonely or left alone; instead, you push me to strive to understand you better. so whatever you need from me today, just say it. i'm here, for the entire night, or even the next day."

you could see how he kept brightening as he kept talking. and in that moment, for the first time, you felt no shame in keeping him close, and you embraced it.

" i could see your face being sore and pained. and i wished i could stay longer, and look now! you made it easier. you do bring comfort and make everything feel lighter. it's not always about me understanding you and giving you space. it's about you being considerate and keeping everything safe individually too."

he added.

a blink of a tear sparkled on your right eye, and then the left eye. you couldn't speak. and this time it was because how ensuring it was for you to make the first move of opening up, not because you're bottling things down.

the tears of joy started pouring down, and his thumbs kept taking care of them.

"i aspire to be like you to you. and i'm trying. no. actually, i will put in extra effort starting now. it torments me too. whether i deserve you or you deserve me; i don't wanna dwell on that. i wanna care about improving for you, with you. i might stumble sometimes, but not like i used to. not anymore! i know how it's difficult for you than for me, articulating my unspoken mind, trying to grasp the unknowns without any clues. but, i won’t let you do that any further. you will be aware of what's happening, and you'll know what's not. it won't just involve embraces and distances, but also hugs and pours. i won't burden you with unknowns anymore."

your grip got tighter and tighter on his wrists.

"you never burdened me. never. not in that way. instead you honoured me with a tenderness so rare, a part of your that no one could ever get or discover. so please tell me what do i need to do for you. tell me what'll make your aches dissolve."

you could've easily let him leave, just how you always did. but today, you did what he wanted for a long time, and you needed your whole life, becoming fervent and full. you wanted ease to settle inside you, alongside him. and without laminating your cries this time, you flowed in.