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mom going on unemployed over a year and bc we grew up in severe poverty with no generational wealth her savings have already been depleted

ex still living with us even though we broke up a year ago due to me not being able to afford rent alone since my mom ran out of her savings and like well you can imagine how that can be at times

Hate where I live, our landlord is shitty and a shining beacon for all awful landlord practices, and I want to move so bad and can’t

uncle passed away two months ago and my sisters husband only allowed them to visit for a fucking WEEK - I hate him and I miss my sister I wish she’d leave him and come home but they’re married and have a child and live in a different country so she feels like she’s trapped

grandpa slowly dying from illness

exs mom (who I still care about deeply) quickly dying from unexpected illness and he is unraveling bc of it

dating life in the garbage can - not that I even have real time to focus on that but it still feels shitty I can’t even keep a man as a friend without getting the avoidant experience lmao

morality of having a job at a debt collection agency is weighing on me but I’m the provider for my mom until she’s working again so I can’t afford to lose this stability atm

one of my best friends went back to her misogynistic abusive RACIST ex after we thought it was finally over and now we haven’t talked in two months and of course I miss her and am worried about her

school about to end and idk with the state of the world and my own life this semester i feel like what’s even the point of still trying for my degree even tho it’s something I always wanted

I need to tell my doctor my med dosage isn’t as effective anymore and likely needs to be bumped but it makes me feel like I failed? and I don’t rlly know why but I didn’t bring it up our last two sessions and I regret it lol

Most of my habits hobbies and routines dead in a ditch or barely holding on so my life feels even more in shambles and I feel like even more of a failure