Assorted Mess

i promise i will shut up about pillion shortly lmfao but without spoiling things so much of this film is about the feeling of isolation, inability to communicate emotional needs, and the differences between sex and intimacy, and it does not provide you with a neat moral conclusion about how you're supposed to feel about the choices that both colin and ray make throughout all of which is to say if you can't handle a very basic level of nuance in showing a messy relationship it can be neatly summarized with the phrase: grow up

Think whatever you want about Pillion but getting railed by your nordic sex god dom in the middle of the English countryside on a warm spring day on your birthday must be the closest a human being can get to Heaven, I'm just saying

your secunit is just as afraid of itself as you are of it. hahaha I bet you thought I was gonna say it's afraid of you didn't you. well turns out it's also scared of the incredible violence it's capable of and the lack of control it has over its own actions / the consequences thereof. see it turns out that when you force a sentient being to hurt other sentient beings regardless of its own nature it tends to see itself as incapable of doing anything except hurt. not that you can tell through the unbreakable walls of dissociation it's put up. it is also afraid of you tho

Hudson and cigarettes and fashion designers: Second in a series.