me internally: prove it prove it prove it prove it prove it prove it

also me internally: please dont love me i dont want to hurt you this is terrifying please dont love me

yet also me internally: good, everyone should love me. get on your fucking knees and worship the fucking ground i walk on.

somehow also me internally: THEY LOVE ME THEY LOVE ME THEY LOVE ME THEY LOVE ME THEY LOVE ME THEY LOVE ME THEY LOVE ME!!!!!

i thought i would make a lil post because i haven’t written one in a very long time.

i’ve been doing alright. i’m currently doing a semester trip away from my college campus but still working and taking classes with people from college. i’m not sure if it has been beneficial for me or not. in the beginning it was quite nice, but its been 2 and a half months now and i’m starting to feel the same as i did on campus and a little homesick as well.

i had a talk with my mom last week and she thinks i would benefit a lot from an emotional support dog, so i will be getting a dog this summer which excites me a lot. you know how bpd people sort of latch onto an interest and get completely obsessed with it? that’s me with the concept of dogs right now. i can’t wait to have one and be obsessed with them. i will keep everyone posted on them here on this blog (and also probably begin to reblog things regarding ESAs!)