Screaming Into The Void

I'm about to deactivate everything and disappear

Just gonna cry it out.

I'm upset but you don't care. Nobody does. Nobody cares to notice. Nobody cares to check on me. Nobody makes time for me. I'm always given a repsonse of I can't promise this or that when I make time for others and change my schedule constantly. Why am I always the one making changes and sacrifices?

Just once I'd like for my romantic requests or scenarios to be reciprocated. I know love languages are different per person but damn. I just want a little romance 🥺 😕

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How does one tell their S/O that they don't want them to FIX something they don't want a resolution, they just want to vent without someone trying to fix it or discredit their anxiety over something? Asking for a friend.

I'm not a tough girl. My heart drops to my stomach everytime someone I love seems off. I'm always in fight or flight. stress over things I can't control. I feel guilt for not doing enough.

Sometimes I just want to be sad and scroll. Not horny sad and scroll. Fucking hell.

I just know me even saying what I just said is going to ruin the rest of the evening, because I'm always at fault. I always have to be a problem. Why can't I just be normal.

Just almost threw up and tasted blood in the process? No surprise it's also linked to us arguing

What's killing me is if I were there we'd be actually spending your birthday together instead of me watching you stream and being a third party to a conversation I wasn't even invited to.

Just because I understand it doesn't mean it doesn't hurt any less.