Wandering star

tfw ur mood suddenly just drops and ur gripped by the fear no one will ever love u again and that all your efforts you’ve ever done are worthless

fuck man bpd is wild one minute everything is chill and the next im crying in the shower bc nobody laughed at my joke last thursday

having bpd is basically just going into crisis mode at least 8 times per week and being perpetually exhausted from all the emotional energy you have to spend on not collapsing and dying

No object permanence we die thinking that everyone has abandoned us because they aren’t in eyesight like men

The worst part about being borderline is feeling like nobody cares if they don’t care about you the most

does anyone else w bpd find it really hard to handle disappointment? like i’m scared to get excited for things because i know i’ll be crushed if it doesn’t work out.

me: im not gonna let anyone know how im feeling me, three seconds later: hey guys im sad and want your attention

me @ myself: it’s okay :))) failing is okay :))) don’t hate yourself for it :)))) stupid piece of shit :))))))))

I slept for almost 12 hours but I might still be tired so lets go for 12 more just in case

Randy that’s a coma

sounds festive

Ok but my bpd ass needs to stop idealizing people and then getting upset when they have flaws and turn out to be, ya know, human

Going from “today is a good day” to “i hate my life” takes me approximately 2.8 seconds.