Not sure why but I got the idea to hop on here and read what I used to post. It’s crazy, I haven’t looked at my Tumblr in YEARS. And I used to be on it every day posting and reposting. Looking back and reading what I’ve wrote it’s wild to see how over the top I was at times. When you’re a teenager anything and everything seems like the end of the world. On the other hand, it shows how much I’ve grown. My feelings and anxieties aren’t all over the place as much anymore. Now I live with my boyfriend in a house. On top of that I left Chicago and live in a completely different state now. I have a full time job and some really amazing friends and a dog (how I can I forget the dog?!). I’m so incredibly happy. Looking back and reading all these posts I wish I could’ve told myself everything will be ok. All the crazy dramatic things won’t matter years from now, some of those people might not even be in your life!
What struck me the most though was all the boy problems. I look back on how I’d always give second chances or the benefit of the doubt. It’s so comforting to know I finally met someone who doesn’t make me jump through hoops and who there is never any drama or uncertainty with. I never thought I would feel this way about someone. It’s been almost two years and my heart still skips a beat every time I get home and see him. It’s comforting to love and be loved back, I guess that’s probably what everyone wants.
