#tbpdfw

to you its a minor inconvenience to me it’s the trigger to a series of debilitating mood swings followed by a paralyzingly emptiness

it’s sm better for me to just not have friends. i keep thinking that’s what is missing from my life but it immediately makes me feel worse. any type of close connection makes me want to kms

u know when u get to know someone n u get closer and closer and ur bpd symptoms start acting up n u wonder how long before they leave u like everyone else

Did anyone else’s friends completely change how they react to you feeling suicidal once they found out you have BPD? I don’t really get any support now, just a vague reminder that I’m just ‘experiencing a period of emotional intensity’ and ‘it will pass like it has done before’. Well I’ve reached the end of my fight, I’ve been feeling this way for far too long, fuck calling this a BPD episode. Im genuinely done with all of this. I’ve been ill for so long, I’m done with fighting.

disgusting how people can fucking break you and then just walk away like it was nothing