I have NEVER talked about my ex here but you know what I’m just reaching a breaking point. His non stop abuse and harassment and honestly stalking have been going on for 5 fucking years and my life is literally just me trying to put everything back together for my kids and I after he ruins them and it isn’t fucking fair. I feel trapped and like I’ll never be able to escape this shit. I’m just saying this all so like idk in case something happens I guess. No one listens I tried getting a restraining order and I couldn’t so this is what it is now.

Tbh this situation is starting to get dangerous and I’m constantly stressed that this man knows where I live and shows up whenever he pleases just to put fear in me. I really would just like to have some peace.

adhd is taking 7 hours to do something bc you need to mentally force yourself to do it. like i will literally just sit on my bed for 2 hours and try to convince myself to go to the store. i postpone going to the store for no reason. I’m not doing anything else in those 2 hours. Just sittin’ there thinking about having to go to the store

GOD I just want to be CREATIVE but all my energy is being used to survive

this is one of those "you put it into words" kind of posts. right on.