sun & stars

things to catch up on:

my weight is pretty much the same, even three years later from when i started this blog

the boy i talked about last summer is now completely out of the picture. basically he once drunkenly told me he liked me but couldn’t be with me bc of my appearance so i told him drunkenly that i’m done with him forever, and from that point i haven’t spoken to him

i am bi

this is literally something i have been dealing with for so long, and i have never really come to terms with myself about it until recently. i like boys and i like girls, there is nothing wrong with it. i like both genders, and i am still myself

i am now dating a girl, which means i have a girlfriend

which also low key means i will be back on this blog to talk a lot of things out

but mostly it also means that i am myself for the first time and i am happy

she makes me so happy to be at my weight, and be happy with myself that i cannot explain it

cutting myself? was two years clean, and then i started it again once i found my blades and had some very very shitty days

i have completely changed from my 2013 self, and have decided that i want to slowly go back to it. i want to be the girl that i used to be. the one that didn’t rely on alcohol, smoking, or anything else to get her through her weeks.

six months later, and i want to change. six months later and i am a new me. i want to look back six months from now and feel like i have changed for the better. six months.