quitting smoking and eating very healthy is good and so is picking an outfit you like every day. Life starts now!

I have an attitude problem sometimes

It’s almost 4 am and I’m sleeping in my former place, in my old roommate‘s room. I never belonged in this city and all of my stuff is in his apartment and I’ve never belonged with him either. The last years have been an ongoing exercise of detachment, of sentimentality that is only allowed during visiting hours.

I might have just saved my own life

I want to be brave. All I want is to hide in bed and pretend I’m five years old but I will be brave

two new pairs of shoes

I literally lived by a beautiful lake with a beautiful man and I felt like shit and I wonder if I even have the ability to ever appreciate anything

there’s something that I want so baaaaaaaaaaad but I don’t know how to grasp it or even call it

so actually there’s no reason for me to be so bored all the time. There’s so many hobbies I wanna try

we texted yesterday and said we still love each other but love was never the issue and at this point I‘m so crazy confused. I miss him but I‘m mostly just tired and I’m gonna sleep over at my friends‘ places