sick princess

Anorexia means that every time you eat, you suddenly feel fatter.

Anorexia means that every time you eat, you feel a voice in your head that says “you should’t have eaten that”.

Anorexia means that every time you see someone skinny you feel like dying.

Anorexia means wanting to weigh yourself every hour just to see the numbers going down down down.

Anorexia means wanting to weigh yourself but being afraid to because you know you shouldn’t have eaten that piece of cake yesterday.

THIS IS ANOREXIA. So please, if you don’t know anything about it, don’t come to me with your bullshit, because I don’t wanna hear any of that. “

i have never been the first choice.

im always second best friend.

im not enough.

i am too much.

everything is wrong with me.

and the only thing that i can control is starving.

i need to be skinny for them to love me.

i need to be ill for them to notice me.