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“Not me,” She smirked playfully. “Why can’t it just be simple?” Granted her idea of simple probably differed greatly to his. “I just wish it was easier. I wish this,” She gestured at the space on the bed between them, “was easier.”

“I don’t think I could ever be scared of you,” she whispered, “Even if I tried.” Another smile came across her features before she frowned, lowering her voice even more. “Of what’s to come. Of the future.”

“Okay, no more food talk,” she smiled and snuggled a bit closer to him, not wanting to make him uncomfortable. “I’m scared, Kai.” She admitted sheepishly.

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“I know you found Elena,” Jeremy greeted him, this time the gun he held was not for the other — so that was an improvement. “where?”

“Where did I find her, or where is she right now?” he asked, cocking his head. “For the latter.. back home -- obviously. Where else?”

She adjusted herself on the pillow next to him, turning to face him. “I’m sorry, I’ll do my best to stop looking like a burger,” she laughed. 

She could see the flicker on his face as he had the same thought she’d had. “I’m not gonna make you sleep in a chair, Kai. Come on, you idiot.” With a laugh she pulled his arm, it was a weak attempt to pull him onto the bed so she could snuggle up next to him - completely innocently of course. “I won’t bite…I mean, you are the vampire.”

“I get what you mean,” she smiled, “It’s times like these I miss my Mom, she was so good with these kinds of things. Always so optimistic and made it seem like there was nothing wrong,” she sighed. No matter how many years passed, no matter what she went through or what she felt for people nothing would dull the ache she felt at the loss of her parents, Jenna and John. They were her whole world, and with them gone she had to step up and be the hopeful one…something that was difficult in times like these. “I’m so tired,” she sighed, leaning back into the soft pillows with a yawn. “Please don’t leave me?” She asked, her wide eyes looking up at him.

“Maybe you should just talk to her? And get an answer for sure. It does nobody any good just sitting in this limbo - and we know more than a bit about that,” she smiled reassuringly at him. Her smile faltered when he continued speaking, “You can’t believe that’s why I’m in love you? I love you because of who you are, Kai. You’re not broken, there’s nothing for me to fix…you’re just you. Whatever you think is wrong inside of you isn’t wrong at all, it’s special. Just like you.” She meant every word, of course he had a dark past but so did she. The mention of kids caught her off guard, she hadn’t considered the fact he was a vampire and she a human, but then it hadn’t stopped her before. “I don’t want to think about that, all that matters to me is the here and now. And right now I want nothing more than to be with you.” She couldn’t believe she was saying the words, “If we’ve learned anything about living in this town, it’s that nothing is impossible. I mean, look at Elijah and Katherine.” It was a strange topic given the current situation of their relationship, “It doesn’t even matter. I don’t care about kids or the fact that I’ll be a shriveled up raisin and you’ll still look like a movie star. All I care about is you.”

“I suppose there are,” she laughed, already sounding much better as his blood ran through her system and healed any ailments she had. “I am sorry Kai, truly. I know exactly the position she’s in, I’ve been there when Damon came back to life and I was with Liam. Granted, I had my memories erased of him but the emotions were still under the surface. It’s hard when you love more than one person, no matter the circumstances. I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy.” She sat back from their hug, reaching out to squeeze his shoulder. “It will be okay, Kai. I promise.”

“I’m sorry. I had no idea,” when she had been kidnapped she knew things were a bit rocky for them, but she figured they’d made up while she’d been gone. “I thought you two would have fixed things. It’s been weeks since he came back. I’m sorry Kai, I’m so sorry I haven’t been here for you,” she leaned across and pulled him into a hug. “I’ve just added to your mess, and it’s the last thing you need right now.”

She had expected him to be shocked, so she just nodded in understanding. “I know…I understand.” It was a lot to take in, and so quickly too. But if she had learned one thing from her complicated but short life on this earth, it was that there was never time to waste. Life was too short - at least it was for her. “I can feel a but coming in there soon. So let me do it for you,” It was expected, she wasn’t naive enough to believe he  could ever feel the same way, “but you’re engaged to my best friend, you two have an eternity stretched out ahead of you. I get it. It kills me. But I get it. All I want is for you to be happy, even if it’s with someone else.”

“Kai,” she sighed, “I might wish I didn’t….but I do. The way I feel about you, I don’t think even the strongest compulsion couldn’t take that away,” it wasn’t factual but the sentiment was true, “I don’t want you to take it away from me…the way I feel when I see your face. It’s so different to anything I’ve felt before and I don’t want to lose that feeling. I wish I didn’t because it’s too complicated, and it would hurt so many people. But despite all the pain it’ll cause, I don’t want to give up what I feel for you because it’s love, Kai. I love you.”

She took his hand and guided his finger to her lips, gently placing a soft kiss on it and drawing some of the blood. It tasted as foul as it always had, like rust, but she instantly felt less tired and sore. “I don’t know, Kai. I wish I could tell you why.” She sighed herself, still holding his hand. “I wish I didn’t.”

“Just a bit,” it was probably a risk, given that it could essentially result in her becoming a vampire again if she died - if it worked that way. Maybe now she would just die, vampire blood or not. She wasn’t exactly in a rush to find out. Of course he’d see through her, her lies were more transparent than glass, “Kai…I can’t.” The words escaped her, “What is there to say?”

“I guess I can, he must have taken The Cure from me before he tortured me…that’s why his blood healed me,” she saw the image of him with the vials full of her blood, countless vials full of the one thing that could turn a vampire human again. When he moved to the bed she sat up more, leaning on her pillows, “It isn’t your fault Kai…” The mention of what she had needed to tell him caught her off guard, “I don’t remember,” she lied terribly, but it was better than the humiliating truth.

Her hand came to her throat, “I remember he - He fed on me…” There were flashes of him asking her for information, compelling her, breaking her bones then healing her with his blood. “It was like torture,” her eyes filled with tears, “It was horrible.” The it hit her like a weight dropping on her heart as she remembered what he had done to her, “He drained my blood, he drained all of the cure from my system.”

“Well I’m nice and toasty now,” she smirked, it still filled her with a sense of pride to see him so caring. She’d always believed in him, since they’d first met she knew he had light in him…and now he was everything she knew he could be. “Another vampire? How? I don’t remember you bringing me back here…”