Take it from a (somewhat) reformed cynic: cynics are invertebrates. Cynicism is our impenetrable exoskeleton, our (outwardly) perfect and impervious shell. The ideal hiding place for the scared little kid who lives inside us.
The terrified child who knows, with the certainty that children have, that hope is pointless and everything is terrible, and that nothing in this world will ever be good or joyful or happy, because life is pain, Highness. Anyone who says differently is selling something.
Cynicism is the armour that we wear to protect our fragile selves from disappointment.
Public transport, what do you expect?
Oh, we say, thatâs just typical. Just goes to show: trust no one.
Someone was mean to us, or someone else, on the Internet?
The Internet is a cesspit of horrors too disgusting to name, why are you surprised? Why would you rail against such an obvious and unchangeable thing? Just ignore it.
Cynicism, in short, is a defense mechanism against a world that is too often cruel or capricious or violent.
But that armour, that exoskeleton, that shell we have constructed or grownâŚitâs too small for an adult. If we stay in there, we cannot grow. There is no room.
And yes, maybe it protected us, once, from horrors we could not deal with. It will continue to protect us from some of the pain in the world, if we stay inside it. Not all of the pain. But some.
But our insulation will come at a price. And that price is growth, and change, and ultimately joy. We cannot really live, or love, or grow, inside that shell. Eventually it will stifle us.
Freeing ourselves is hard. It requires bravery. But more than that, it requires vulnerability.
Because itâs true, the world is often a harsh and cruel and uncaring place. But it is also a beautiful and joyful and loving one. Stepping out means acknowledging that we will get hurt. It is a certainty.
It also requires that we grow a backbone to take the place of the shell.
Too often, when people say âgrow a backboneâ, what they mean is, âMan up! Donât let anything affect you!â
But thatâs the shell talking. A backbone wonât mean that the hits glance off us. But it does mean we can bend with them. Things will still hurt. Maybe theyâll hurt more. Maybe that pain can be channelled into something productive. Maybe not.
But cynicism is not bravery.
So crack the shell. And be brave.