Somewhere Over The Rainbow

This is Tay aka Pee Paw. He is the absolute sweetest boy you could know. We love him so much. And this isn’t something we have ever done before, but we are asking for support if you can. You can read Pee Paw’s story. Thank you in advance.

Its been a minute since my last update. So, I am going to get right into it. We are seeing a fertility doctor now. DH sperm analysis wasn't great. They want to do a FSH work up and see if he is making sperm and maybe its just trapped. 🙄. You always get a little hope with each doctor appointment, maybe THIS is the appointment that changes the game. Some kind of special miracle will happen. But then labs come back and you feel like you've been struck by a smooth criminal(haha). Smh. Sucks!!!

If only us women had it this easy...

Talk dirty to me...

Did I mention the Huggies commercial with the moms reading love letters to their unborn babies kill me? 😢

Lol

Husband has his SA in the morning and I am soooo nervous as to what the results will be. I am hoping the vitamin I have him on is working. The last time we did a SA, Ik we didn't do it right and reading online, correct info wasn't given to us. So hopefully, we get way better news this time around. I guess at this point its all up to God. I just pray that it all goes well.

So our RE called, bumped up husbands SA to next week instead of next month!! Im so nervous because Idk if the vitamin he has been on is working..we know part of the problem, so now we are just waiting to see if this is the "b side" if you will. I hate this part, in your head you're all like "what could go wrong" and then the results come back and every damn thing is wrong. Smh. FX!!✨👶🏾✨👶🏾

Ok so I know between hormone shots and the entire ttc journey in itself is stressful and emotional, but everything isn't meant to be...insensitive. For example Kim K's snapchat of her three EPT's with the caption "panic attack". I have been ttc forever, and I didnt see a cause for concern. I am 100% convinced that no matter what she says, does or post, someone will find fault. Now its different if she personally knows someone who is ttc, then thats a convo for them to have. But we all post things on our social media that other wouldn't for whatever reason or another..its ok.

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Who lives in a pineapple under the sea? My fertility!!

Cycle day 10, today we are back with the opk's. See those hearts? Im in my projected fertile window. I am super convinced that I don't have O when my app says I do, I plan on finding out this cycle. I need go and by a pineapple.

Nobody prepared me for this part of my marriage..

Tomorrow starts my fertility window!! I am armed with pomegranate juice😷 and I will be grabbing a pineapple to core. From what Ive been told, I am to start this 6dpo-10dpo. FX. If this doesn’t work this cycle, I have the dreaded HSG sometime next month. Ugh! If we can get pregnant before our next RE appt, that would be my world! Its starting, has been harder lately pretending to not want kids. Yesterday at work, I found myself staring at this pregnant customer..wth! Like I said, FX. Baby dust to you all✨👶🏾✨👶🏾✨

Seriously though..

This was in my fb tl because a few of my friends "liked" it...so you know what my dumb ass did? Opened the comments and seen all the BFP's. Sometimes my brain refuses to work..😒