“@blasterblades
when gaillard became sick during his visit, aichi took care of him. he thought he would be better off in a hospital, but respected gaillard’s wish not go. for n ow at least. if he got worse, he would definitely take him there. it wasn’t too serious, but aichi couldn’ help but worry. he was on semester break right now, so he could focus all of his attention on taking care of gaillard. “gaillard-kun, i’m right here...” he spoke softly, sitting on a chair right beside the bed gaillard was laying on.
when gaillard began rambling, aichi started blushing. he must be really out it. saying things like this...he didn’t expect it at all. he really was sick. aichi’s heart was racing, but it also hurt. gaillard probably didn’t mean the things he was saying. or at least, he didn’t mean it in the way aichi was hoping. even if it sounded romantic, aichi had doubts. even with gaillard’s behavior toward him, he wasn’t sure if he truly felt that way about him. “i-i’m not going anywhere...im right here.” he squeezed gaillard’s hand lightly. “you don’t have to apologize, it’s okay...you should get some rest. you really need it.”
even though aichi reassured gaillard he was still there, gaillard whined. he could feel aichi’s hand in his, warm compared to gaillard’s hands that were clammy and sweaty. but he couldn’t see aichi. he tried too look over at aichi, but he couldn’t see him. he couldn’t see anything. ( his eyes were closed. ) “ i wanna see you ... ”
even in his state, he could tell aichi was feeling upset. gaillard was always in tune with aichi’s emotions. he had to be, especially when his life became solely protecting aichi. he still wanted to protect aichi now, after all. “ i mean it, i wouldn’t say it if i didn’t, aichi-san, ” gaillard slurred, his throat dry. “ wanted to protect you but i just made you suffer ... ‘ll never be the knight that you deserve. but i wanna be. i wanna be good enough for you to be by my side like this, all the time ... ”
he ended up rambling again. he couldn’t help it. he felt so sick and he needed aichi to know how he felt. if he died here ( of a nasty cold ), he wanted aichi to know he loved him. and that he was sorry he couldn’t be the person aichi needed. “ ‘s okay if you don’t wanna forgive me, i just want you to know ... i didn’t wanna hurt you, but that was all i did. ‘m so sorry, aichi-san, ” he forced himself to sit up, wanting to look at aichi in the eyes, but he still couldn’t see him ( his eyes were still closed ). gaillard felt himself fall forward, onto a warm body -- aichi -- instead. “ even now, you’re the one taking care of me ... i wanna ... see you ... ” he was growing tired, but he didn’t want to sleep. he wanted to see aichi’s face and his beautiful smile. he couldn’t hold back the cough that shook him, even if it ended up on aichi’s shirt. “ s - sorry ... ”
