when gaillard became sick during his visit, aichi took care of him. he thought he would be better off in a hospital, but respected gaillardās wish not go. for n ow at least. if he got worse, he would definitely take him there. it wasnāt too serious, but aichi couldnā help but worry. he was on semester break right now, so he could focus all of his attention on taking care of gaillard. āgaillard-kun, iām right here...ā he spoke softly, sitting on a chair right beside the bed gaillard was laying on.
when gaillard began rambling, aichi started blushing. he must be really out it. saying things like this...he didnāt expect it at all. he really was sick. aichiās heart was racing, but it also hurt. gaillard probably didnāt mean the things he was saying. or at least, he didnāt mean it in the way aichi was hoping. even if it sounded romantic, aichi had doubts. even with gaillardās behavior toward him, he wasnāt sure if he truly felt that way about him. āi-iām not going anywhere...im right here.ā he squeezed gaillardās hand lightly. āyou donāt have to apologize, itās okay...you should get some rest. you really need it.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā even though aichi reassured gaillard he was still there, gaillard whined. he could feel aichiās hand in his, warm compared to gaillardās hands that were clammy and sweaty. but he couldnāt see aichi. he tried too look over at aichi, but he couldnāt see him. he couldnāt see anything. ( his eyes were closed. )Ā ā i wanna see you ... ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā even in his state, he could tell aichi was feeling upset. gaillard was always in tune with aichiās emotions. he had to be, especially when his life became solely protecting aichi. he still wanted to protect aichi now, after all.Ā ā i mean it, i wouldnāt say it if i didnāt, aichi-san, ā gaillard slurred, his throat dry.Ā ā wanted to protect you but i just made you suffer ...Ā āll never be the knight that you deserve. but i wanna be. i wanna be good enough for you to be by my side like this, all the time ... ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā he ended up rambling again. he couldnāt help it. he felt so sick and he needed aichi to know how he felt. if he died here ( of a nasty cold ), he wanted aichi to know he loved him. and that he was sorry he couldnāt be the person aichi needed. āĀ ās okay if you donāt wanna forgive me, i just want you to know ... i didnāt wanna hurt you, but that was all i did.Ā ām so sorry, aichi-san, ā he forced himself to sit up, wanting to look at aichi in the eyes, but he still couldnāt see him ( his eyes were still closed ). gaillard felt himself fall forward, onto a warm body -- aichi -- instead.Ā ā even now, youāre the one taking care of me ... i wanna ... see you ... ā he was growing tired, but he didnāt want to sleep. he wanted to see aichiās face and his beautiful smile. he couldnāt hold back the cough that shook him, even if it ended up on aichiās shirt.Ā ā s - sorry ... ā