Juanita

“i like to tell myself that i wasn’t really in love with you but even on the months i forget to pay my credit card bills, i still remember to check your horoscope.”

This Year I Mean to Be an Elephant  From You Are Not Dead I don’t know if you understand me when  I say hopefully there is a future and we  are both allowed in it. I mean last year it  was OK just to be flattened by our ideas.  I sat in so many rooms and eventually felt  interesting and not like a chair. Do you  feel like a straight line? I worry about how  I don’t. I worry that when I turn on  the radio this morning it sounds just like I expect. I am thinking about kicking what I expect in the shin. Last year I forgot whole people until having lunch again with those people. Last year I forgot really embarrassing secrets like how I am allergic to regular soap. Cue all different kinds of light and what music makes you feel not dead. Last night I dreamt about sand.  -Wendy Xu

Por la noche estoy viva.

“If love is anything tangible, it is his mouth his mouth, his holy god damned mouth. He says my name and the whole sky is talking.”

"GREAT CLOUD" by Wendy Xu