Be different.

AS IF IT WAS THAT EASY?! And damn. If they only knew how many times I tried, but only to fail several times.

And sana may realignment sa life ko. Yung as in sudden realignment na magiging magaan life ko.

Grateful naman ako on where I am now. Pero nakakainis lang na every little good things na nangyayari, ang laking sakuna ang karugtong. Hindi ba pwede happy lang?

I’m aware naman na there’s no such thing as perfect life. But somehow I envy those who always have back ups in life. Hays.

Nakakahurt pala kapag you wanted to celebrate something then may maririnig kang hindi maganda from other people.

So, I was promoted to senior sa July and I’m so happy! Like happy happy. Like it was a small win in life after all the hard times. Pero nawala yung excitement ko and napalitan ng kaba and sadness because I hear some negative things about it.

Napaisip ako ng sobra na if may mali ba ako na nagawa or ganito ba talaga yung pag-umaakyat ka ng corporate ladder?

To be honest. sobrang unexpected ko about the promotion. Like, ang layo ng date ng expectation ko pero when the higher ups called me to discuss it, I was really shocked and asked about the “why”. And also, nafelt bad ako when I learned na may mga naiwan na tao.

But somehow, ayun nga. I wanted to celebrate like a “yehey” kind of celebration pero narinig ko yung mga bagay na parang they kept on trying to piga me if I did something when in fact, wala talaga. I’m just doing my job like everyone else. Hindi ako maka-voice out kasi parang nahihiya na ako.