Geraldt (Blu Medic!)

𓅪𓂃🪶 Hallo! Ich heiße Geraldt, schön dich kennenzulernen! I am the BLU medic ✙!!

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🩻 ☣︎ Willkommen! ☣︎ 🩻

⛑ This is my little med bay where I post things about myself and my life! I also draw and write when I'm not doing other important things.

Und this is not roleplay, I am medic! Doubles are always free to interact I would love to meet others like me! I do like to tease the RED team but it is not personal, I used to work for them before BLU. 💙

I have a lot more fun now that I am free to choose the way I live. Back when I was alive, I either went too far on RED or kept too reserved on BLU. I'm in a sort of healthy middle now!

I think I was born sometime in the late 40s or early 50s! I remember being a lot younger than Herbert ✙. I don't remember too much-! but I will be tracking my memories here as I do. ⛨

Feel free to stick around! There are snacks in the cupboard and I'll only be taking a few pints of blood!

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✃"Stop whining! It will only hurt for a second!"

Click here for my playlist !!

𓅌 Tschüss! ــــــــــﮩ٨ـ ⁀➴

Red Soldier yelling back "That's what a clone would say!!"

I used to hate and despair the same people I call my lovers now. It's so strange how easy it was for me to fall in love with them.

When I first processed everything that happened, realizing I had died, trying to relearn what my life was now, Herbert helped me a lot to try and cope with it all. I didn't trust him, I was drunk and alone with whom I considered a threat, terrible combination but I slowly let him reason with me.

There was no need to hate him with no war going on, no need to feel intimidated with no weapons. Such a weird position to be in. One moment I'm alive the next- blip! Gone! And now here.

Meeting Heavy again was awkward as well, apologizing for the things I had done. But I got to learn a lot about his perspective, got to learn he was the one who sent the note that eventually got me kicked off the team.

Now Heavy and I sit on a swing in our back porch and drink coffee together while I identify birds that live in our back yard.

Herbert and I flirt and jeer at eachother in german.

We go on picnics and dates, play games and learn new skills, relearn old ones.

We are both in our 20s but we act like we are retired. It's exciting to think about the rest of our lives. Heavy especially is a very traditional man, he talks about marriage. I know it's a long long way off, intimacy has never been a strong suit for me. But it feels so nice to be so loved. I love them both so much.

We just got our own house together. I want to convince Herbert to get doves again one day hehe.

I can't believe how incredibly lucky I am to have met someone I'd known back then, and so gently be guided through our new lives. It's lonely in the house without them I miss them.

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It's so fun to tease Herbert for having the entire RED team rencarnate with him. Because of his whole deal with the devil thing (cheater...) all of those souls from came back with him this time around.

BLU did not rencarnate with me because I never made such a deal. But!! It is very awkward talking to them again and saying things like

"haha.. hello everyone..remember me?? Guy who was on your team and did very unethical experiments to you! Who lied, blackmailed, bargained, or pull ANY strings I could just to send you out on the battle feild with very slight improvements that would end up with your heart exploding mid battle! Haha.. that's me!! Hallo again, long time no see!!"

Entirely reasonable they voted me off. Heavy was actually the one who put the complaint into the office, he told me recently. When they put it to a vote, everyone voted to kick me off. It still sucks to think about.

But it's fair. I was entirely unreasonable, especially to him.

"No heavy!! No one else can take this experiment, I believe in you, I know you can do this. Please. I need this. You believe in science don't you? The need to progress? No one else believes in me anymore, but I know you do! Please, I've tested this, I KNOW it will work."

I lied through my teeth, sent him in with a piece of equipment I KNEW would fail after a certain point, I just needed to know how long it would last. I felt telling him that truth was counter productive, so I told him after. Didn't even pretend to act surprised when I had to stitch him up on the feild. A testament to how little I respected him at the time.

Jeremy was always the easiest to persuade. "Don't you want to advance science! No one else is as brave as you are to do it, you would be celebrated as a hero for your advancements!" But he wasn't an idiot and after hurting him it would take time to gain his trust again for the next round.

I was especially cruel to Tavish when there was absolutely no one else around to help me I would just just bribe him with as much alcohol as I could stuff into him till he couldn't move and then I'd drag him to my lab.

Some people entirely refused and wouldn't even stand to be alone with me, like Engie who was helping me build the respawn machine. Most all of these cruelties were in the name of the respawn machine. The medigun's development was going along fine at the time, in beta, but still effectively working stages!

I understood only after I joined BLU that the way I acted was unacceptable. And my team who I was supposed to be HELPING were not actually just tools for my disposal but PEOPLE who had just as much power as me to get rid of me if they needed.

I became a completely different man, I was scared of what they could do now and I was very quiet about my intense desires. And I thoroughly made sure my team KNEW what they were getting into so the blame would fall on me less. But most importantly I regretted the opportunities I lost not treating RED as human beings, learning about BLU's personal lives and individual personalities actually turned out to be fun and rewarding, even if I wouldn't share my own very often. It was different but nice.

Most of the fun has already been taken out of it anyways after Herbert joined RED and MAAAGICALLY all the things I sacrificed to make the tiniest bit of advancement towards the respawn machine were solved in a month or two at unheard speeds. Aka that bastard made a deal with the devil and cheated his way into finishing the respawn machine.

I have been having a lot of fun getting to know RED this time around. Everything is so different now but we are still the same people at our core. I should talk about my day to day life more! I dont think I've mentioned this but I actually live with my RED team cannonmates! I should delve into my personal life regarding them at some point.

Some differences between me and Herbert as well as some fun facts about me!

I did not have an Archimedes! But I was fond of birds, and would feed the wild crows and pigeons often enough that they would wait for me! I started to name them all over time but feeding the birds was something I did privately when work was overwhelming me. I remember there was a back metal porch on a part of the base near my lab that I would feed them at. We were stationed in New Mexico at the time. No one else went back there because, conveniently, there happen to be a lot of bird shit around there for some reason. It was highly discouraged to feed wild life including birds but the watchful reigns of MANN were, in all honesty, not kept that tightly on us.

( I wish they would have let me pet them like this, but the most I got them to do was eat out of my hand sometimes 💔💔 )

Herbert was around 10- 15 years older than me exactly. I wish I remembered when his birthday was but it was very close to mine, if not within a few days of. He was around 50 and I was in my late 30s.

I kept my medical lisence!! I never got it revoked because I never stole. And then misplaced. A man's skeleton.

I also never made a deal with the devil. Herbert's ears were more pointed than mine but it could have been my imagination in all fairness.

I was born somewhere over on where the top left side of Germany is now! Maybe up a little bit further? But definitely around there.

How did clones work in my timeline? Am I a clone?

The specifics were never told to me too directly but, there were some things that I payed attention to. I went through a lot of bureaucracy and paperwork going from RED to BLU so some of the people I met passing through there let some things slip.

Side note! 🖊 When I was kicked off, it was a very awkward car ride into the middle of the desert where my hands and feet were bound, I was tossed out of the car, and then they sped off. These were all instructions sent to RED to do to me by MANN CO but they didn't know shortly after I would be picked up by a seperate MANN CO vehicle driven by Miss Pauling. Unbound and ready to start again on a new team they were developing!

When I found out the team I would be on would all be exact physical copies of my old team I had responded with something along the lines of "So they're clones?". The person talking to me had laughed in my face and said "It's funny you think you're the originals. You think you're so special. As if you don't deal with enough things that aren't grown in lab or slabbed on a petri dish."

I never told anyone about it. But that gave me something to think about for a long while. Consider things. Here is my theory based off of what I learned from everyone:

We got to grow up and live in families from our respective countries. No matter how well our lives were going there was always SOMETHING that would interrupt our future and place us in MANN CO. It was always presented like our only option or "our choice" to join. I think we were either implanted in embryos or switched in the hospital, something simular to this, to place us in the lives of unknowing families. We live our lives, mildly influenced by MANN CO. Until we are needed.

RED Heavy and I were both in college at some point (not at the same time) and were both well on our way to fine careers but something would happen. And we would get a letter from MANN CO telling us there were urgently hiring at a price we just couldn't refuse. For Heavy it was tragedy, for me it was the pay they were offering that out weighed my other options.

Needless to say I got carried away, I didn't value them as people and saw them more as test subjects. I was sort of secretly voted off the team while new blu recruits were making their way in. (Which I don't know if we knew about yet.) After I was voted off without my knowledge, I was told it was unanimous by my higher ups, I was "promoted" to blu team!