I’m actually starting to believe it really is possible to get through hard days. I’ve been through so many now. When I’m in the midst of it, I can recall the previous times I’ve felt this way, thinking it will forever be like that, but then in a week’s time, it usually fades away. So when disappointment strikes, someone speaks to me harshly, I get home from a bad date, I get rejected, I get left out, I feel behind, I don’t know what I’m doing… I’ll notice how uncomfortable I am in that moment, but I always say to myself “it won’t be so bad in a week, give it a week.” And it is in fact always better in a week. 

stuck between “i need to save money” and “you only live once”

You are not too demanding. You are not creating conflict. You are setting a boundary. You are caring for yourself.