maybe i am still the younger self

(about a problematic ship) actually i think the power dynamics should get more unbalanced and they should have less respect for each other's autonomy and they should violate more boundaries and commucate worse and fuse together in a tangled mass of tragedy until the lines between them blur and vanish and they are one single unified embodiment of unending worship

i hate driving. here are the laws! if you break them there will be consequences! except youre also expected to break the law just a little bit. people will get mad at you if you dont. you dont have right of way but the person who does is waving you forward for some reason. here's the speed limit! it's not the speed limit, the actual speed limit is that plus ~5-10. the light is green but you're in the turning lane. can you go? should you have gone just then? the person behind you is honking at you. there's a weird noise coming from your engine; if you try to do the right thing and get it checked out, will you get scammed? you are driving a 1-2 ton metal machine rocketing at speeds unknown to humankind for most of history. around a million people die in car accidents every year; that's about one person every thirty seconds. if you take that seriously and try to drive safely then people get mad at you.

Now imagine it's winter time and you have to come to a full stop at an intersection cuz that's the law, but if you come to a full stop at the intersection you will either get stuck or start sliding backwards into the car behind you because the road is icy af, so you don't ACTUALLY come to a full stop at the intersection and everyone knows that this is the safer and correct way to handle this situation and is okay with it, except on the odd day that one cop isn't okay with it and you get a ticket for coming to a rolling stop at the intersection.

And it will be at 2am when literally nobody is around but the bored cop lurking in the dark. Then you will learn that it legally doesn’t count as a full stop unless your car does a little bounce. You didn’t know that. Who in their right mind defines a stop like that? Are you not allowed to make a safe stop so gradual that the little bounce doesn’t happen? Apparently not.

or you get stalked by a highway patrol freak who likes to watch you cry