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Shes so sweet.

I dont think a woman will ever truly love me because I cant offer her a biological child or all the money in the world off the bat.

I love deeply, and work for what I have a give.

Aurora Borealis

It’s been a while, and you deserve to know:

Even after everything, I still love you so.

I still want you, though I know it's not mutual,

And this ending is final, this closure habitual.

I dread the dawn and the closing door,

Knowing I will see your face no more.

That final laughter, that lingering touch—

I’d have stayed much longer, loving so much.

Oh, how I wish I had shed my fears,

And noticed your pain through the passing years.

I see it now, a belligerent fool,

Caught in the trap of my own strict rule.

Every inch of my being aches for a home,

A place to rest as I aimlessly roam.

You are my aurora borealis, burning bright,

A spectacular phenomenon lighting the night.

Now when you look at me, your eyes are dim,

Viewing me as a stranger, a ghost.

Everywhere I wander, everyone I meet,

Your name is the echo that walks down the street.

You are better now, and I can't fault that,

Though I'm left with the weight where I sit at.

Wishing I could change a single yesterday,

All i will ever be is a convenience.

No love will come my way.

No friendships.

They only stay when i say

"I'll pay"

Coming to me when life is hard,

I give them hope and laughter

But when i finally fall

They dont answer my calls

No one truly loved me.

Sitting next to you, it feels like an ocean separates us. I still see the woman I desire in your eyes, but the way you look at me now- just a friend, almost a stranger--is undeniable. You seem happier this way, doing things you never did when we were together. You're loving yourself more apart, and I can't fault that.

"I only stayed because you took care of me"

The mind is an interesting thing. All I could think about was someone this whole week. We've been no contact for so long and I dont want to see them for bad intentions. I just want to see them one more time as mature adults. Must be the time of year. But genuinely wish them the best with life.