BloodyBrain

Not the kind you put on bread

The kind that makes you laugh and prance

Surely they both are sweet

But only one can find where im hurt the most

and still make me weep

I love jams

Not the ones that makes you get up and dance

The ones that are a delicacy

And enjoyed by everybody

Not just me

I love jams

Not only the kind that you make with earth's hands

But the one that you clap with your hands

It would be nice if I were the only one who loved jams

I love jams

Not the thing thats made with the flesh of fruit

Nor the tunes that is used when singing the blues

I love the jams that were made from my heartbeat

My name you called sounded like music to my ears

Your face looked oh so sweet

Maybe it was the tunes in my ear or the fruit that I eat

Thats the reason why ive got my love for you mixed up with the treat

The sugar for you was made from the sweat from my glands

The one that made the soothing beats and the fruits to eat

Ill just keep going.

I thought of you more.

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Run on sentences

Feel like the halls.

The i's on my keyboard

were so close apart.

I moved away from the typewriter

I swear I felt your pull.

I was just a subheading

while you were the title

God.

Ive cried puddles

Ive cried oceans

Ive cried rivers

I guess im a giver

The feeling of the water

Running down my cheek

Makes me feel like a pen full of ink

You make it seem like it is so wrong

Did I maybe cry - a little too long?

Its been months

The sidewalk has cleared

The rivers ran dry

The ocean turn to sand

There are no tears left in my eyes

It shouldn't be wronged

I shouldn't be scolded

I just wanted to be held

Instead you looked at me yelled

My tears fill the gaps

Without it i am none

I guess im a crybaby

Why can I not remember a time where everyone joined hands to celebrate?

This paper that we call our world

Is made from the trees that came first

We circle our lives around being better than the others

That money can get you anything and everything

Just keep it undercover

Why is the world so full of hate?

That even in this world not just me is judged from where my ancestors were date

You swear and sneer and called me wretched names

Just from the pigment in my bone

the color of my skin

We all bleed red have you not seen so much blood?

Whys there so much hate where there should've been love?

Why is the world so filled with hate?

I dont want to have to choose between the red or the blue

the old or the new

the rich or the poor

the black or the white

It doesnt matter what I choose because it will never be right

Why is the world filled with oh so much hate?

There is no right there is no wrong

I cannot be white

I cannot be strong

I cannot love her

You say that is crude

I do not have money

I cant have that too

This world is impossible

Thats why theres hate

They push you around

I don't wanna move

I don't wanna fake it

I've tried to Improve.

These black holes have filled my mind

I feel like there is no time,

no time to move.

No time to love

No time to feel.

I can't fly My mind is a cloud.

I can't think straight.

I want to take a leap of faith.

When I jumped I felt free

I thought that I landed on my feet.

When I woke up, it was dark.

Im trapped

Then you were my last

Why did I think this was fate?

I thought of you while you walk passed

Where all my tears were turned to ash

My passion is burning me from the inside

I don't think that I might survive

I hope this letter runs right to you

Even in the cage you shoved me into

I want my last words to live and thrive

I want my last question to not be chewed

So here are my last words my last question for you..

"I want to die"

You look at me and say

"Thats a lie"

The smile on my face has never contrasted

The shining of my earings

Was always the flashiest

If i am so happy

Why cant I be sad?

My once dangled earings are now like my body

The smile on my face looks pale and bobbly