please don't take my sunshine away

“You have a habit of flirting with anyone.”

“I think you are the one who’s flirting.”

Favorite BLs of 2021 [5/7] - To My Star

“Ji Woo, if this is hard for you, I’ll come to you.”

A Crime/Gang/Mafia AU: “Of fucking course you’re the leader of the mafia. You were just too perfect.”

You had thought the days of Hyunwoo walking through your door with blood staining skin and cloth alike were far behind you. Its an image that haunts your nightmares, both asleep and awake. Those horrible dreams are second only to the one where he’s laying still in a coffin.

That’s why when Hyunwoo comes into your living room with blood trickling down his cheeks, half-supported by Jooheon, the rush of nausea in your stomach is immediate as memories of your earlier days together flash in your mind. 

Blood means fighting. Fighting means power-plays. Power-plays mean death.

You run from the kitchen and into the living room as Jooheon helps Hyunwoo ease himself down onto the sofa. “What the happened?” you demand, hands fluttering as you try to discern the worst of his injuries.

“It’s nothing,” Hyunwoo says through gritted teeth. He won’t meet your eyes. He hisses and tries to jerk away when you grab his chin to look for the source of the blood.

Your head snaps to Jooheon. The younger man wilts beneath your glare, and with an apologetic glance at his leader, answers, “It was a boxing match.”

“A boxing match?” You look back at Hyunwoo. “Why were you in a boxing match?”

Again, Hyunwoo doesn’t answer, merely closing his eyes and taking deep breaths.

“Jooheon,” you say warningly. You don’t look at him, instead taking a tissue to wipe at the blood pooled by Hyunwoo’s collarbone and dribbling down his neck. If you don’t focus on something you can fix, the emotions searing your chest might explode. Or you might throw something. 

“A lieutenant challenged him, said Hyunwoo wasn’t fit for leadership, that he’d been at the top too long and didn’t have the strength for the streets.” You can almost hear Jooheon bristling like a raging tomcat at the insult to his friend and leader.

“Hyunwoo won?”

“Of course I did,” Hyunwoo answers, groaning. “I wouldn’t be here if I didn’t.”

In a normal person’s life, that would be an exaggeration. But none of you live a normal life. Life in the mafia is quick, brutal, and merciless. You keep only what you fight for, including your life.

“Thank you for getting him home, Jooheon.” You leave Hyunwoo’s side to get two ice packs and the first aide kit you still keep under the sink. “I’ve got it from here.”

Knowing he’s been dismissed, Jooheon bows his head and walks toward the door, pausing only long enough to say, “If you need anything, let one of us know.”

You nod, waiting until you hear the door lock behind Jooheon to return to Hyunwoo. Placing the ice packs on his ribs, you sit down on the coffee table and begin sorting through your medical supplies. Alcohol wipes, gauze, butterfly bandages, pain-killers –

Hyunwoo’s hand, his knuckles raw, closes over your trembling ones. You start to cry as he pulls you to his shoulder, the anger giving way to its root: fear.

“I’m okay,” Hyunwoo soothes, holding you as tightly as he dares. “I’m okay.”

He doesn’t apologize for fighting or for worrying you. He had made it clear those would be constant in your lives long before he had slipped the simple gold ring on your finger.

But you’re not made of stone, no matter how much you wish you were sometimes. Every time he walks out the door and leaves your sight, you’re worried he won’t come home to you again. You know, with absolute certainty, you wouldn’t survive without Hyunwoo.

All the more reason you need to be strong for him. You allow yourself a few more stifled sniffles, then force your breaths to slow until you can pull away without looking too much a mess.

Hyunwoo uses his thumb to wipe away the remaining tears. In that single gesture and the way the apology he can’t give lies in his eyes, you see the man you fell in love with. Not Hyunwoo the mafia leader, but Hyunwoo the man. The gentle bear of a man who loves and cares for you more than you had ever thought possible.

Before he can take his hand away, you gently take it and kiss the golden band on his finger that matches your own. Softly, your other hand finding the antibiotic cream and opening it to start applying it across his broken skin, you ask, “Do you know what my first thought was when you told me what you are?”

Hyunwoo shakes his head.

“Of fucking course you’re the leader of the mafia. You were just too perfect.”

This makes him chuckle, just as you intended. The sound and his smile crack through your mood with the hint of their brightness.“I thought we agreed no swearing outside the bedroom?”

“That agreement was forfeited when you came home to me damaged.”

“My bad.” Hyunwoo sighs as he watches you carefully tend to his hands. When you get to his face, he jerks at the coolness of the cream, but relaxes as you blow on it. “I’m getting slower.”

“Glad I’m not the only one thinking it,” you tease.

“Hey–”

You stop him with a kiss right on his mouth. Despite the smile on your face, your words are completely serious. “Just make sure you stay fast enough to always come back to me, understand?”

Hyunwoo tugs you back to him by the back of your neck for another kiss. “Yes, ma’am.”

————

The very air of the secluded garden seems to hold its breath. No birds sing. Even the spring that feeds the pond by your feet is silent in your ears as you wait for Hyunwoo’s answer.

The hwarang captain stands in front of you, a respectful distance away. His expression hadn’t changed despite you just confessing you love him.

In your eyes though, Hyunwoo has changed so much. It’s only been a few months since your arrival at the Silla royal court. At the king’s order, because of the kidnapping attempt on the road. Hyunwoo had become your shadow. He was one step behind you every where you went except your bedroom. Even then, he was just beyond the doors. 

At first, he had remained your stoic rescuer, resisting your attempts at conversation. But, whether through your charm or persistence, his silence crumbled. He was so much easier to talk to than the courtiers whose words you could never trust as real or false. Hyunwoo always spoke plainly and truthfully. That’s how you came to know Hyunwoo the person.

Then, Hyunwoo the person became Hyunwoo the man. The man who lifted you to reach the ripe plum. The man who quietly advised you on court customs so you didn’t make a fool of yourself or your nation. The man who spoke to you as an equal rather than a pawn.

You should have known your heart was slipping away from you until it was no longer yours. But it took a reminder of your imminent departure from the court to remember this meant leaving Hyunwoo too.

All you can see is trees. Trees for leagues and leagues along the royal road. Not that you can really see much with how small the carriage window is. You had hoped your father being ambassador to Silla would afford a bigger carriage, but instead you had gotten this one.

“Please close the curtain,” your father says, his eyes closed as he reclines in the pile of cushions, swaying with the rocking of the carriage.

“I just want to see our new home for the next few months,” you reply, ignoring his suggestion.

You are curious about Silla, but truth be told, you’re hoping to glimpse something other than the landscape. Or rather someone.

The king of Silla had bestowed a great honor on your father. He had sent a company of the famed Hwarang, the handsome scholar warriors the kingdom is legendary for. Your temporary bodyguards have so far lived up to the renown, but none more so than their captain, Hyunwoo.

He fascinates you. Although he is just as good-looking as the other Hwarang, he is more quite and more reserved. They tease and sing, while Hyunwoo only speaks to inquire if you need anything. The others flirt whenever they see your face, but Hyunwoo only meets your eyes with a soft smile as he holds your hand to help you from the carriage each night.

There is something about him, a subtle charisma that draws you to him. His men tease him as relentlessly as each other despite his status, but it is clear beyond a doubt that they hold him in high regard. If only you could get him to say more than a few words at a time to you.

Your father speaks again. “Do you intend to keep me awake the rest of the day with that sunshine?”

Sighing, you let the curtain fall across the small window and resume your seat. “I am just curious to see if Silla is so different from home. It is strange how few birds there are.”

“What do you mean?”

“We’re in a forest, but I haven’t heard a single bird for the past half hour or so.”

Your father’s face inexplicably becomes drawn. “We must-”

A horse suddenly screams in pain and the carriage jolts to stop. Men yell and metal clashes all around you.

“What’s happening?” You bolt to your feet as your heart thumps heavily and your mind races.

“Get down!” Your father reaches for you, grabbing at your sleeves to pull you closer to him, but as he does, a body crashes through the carriage roof between you.

You can’t help your scream as a man all in black, his face covered in a scarf, emerges from the torn wood. He grabs your arm, fingers roughly digging into your flesh through your clothes. Even as you claw and flail and yell, he kicks the carriage door open and drags you through it.

As he pulls you to the front of the carriage, you see the Hwarang fighting more men in black, each warrior fighting at least two attackers. An ambush.

You spot Hyunwoo with his back against the carriage, his sword trembling with the force of impact as he parries a blow to his face. “Hyunwoo!” you cry out.

His eyes meet yours. Like a tiger tossing off a fly, Hyunwoo shoves his assailant away, calling your name and running towards you with a hand outstretched.

But it’s too late. Your kidnapper forces you onto the carriage horse’s back, jumps behind you, and smacks the horse’s flank so it springs forward.

You squirm and claw, trying to fight both your own panic and the stranger’s arm that traps you against the horse's back. Your only reward for your efforts is a smart smack directly to your face. Shock and pain make your body slump, but it also loosens the long pin holding your hair in place. 

“I’m sorry,” you whisper to the horse, your words lost to the sound of its pounding hooves. 

Yanking the pin from your hair, you stab the horse’s shoulder. Squealing, it rears up, tossing the both of you to the road and running away.

Your lungs struggle to suck breath back into your chest. Yet even as you cough as you breathe in dust from the road, you can’t help your pride in the success of your gamble. That pride is short lived as the kidnapper suddenly grabs you by the hair and yanks you to your feet. 

“Don’t come any closer, Hwarang!” he shouts.

You almost cry in relief as the dust clears to reveal Hyunwoo reining in his horse. Then, a knife, the blade thin and sharp, pricks the thin skin of your neck. Your mind goes blank and your whole body freezes. 

All you can think is you don’t want to die.

Hyunwoo dismounts smoothly. “You will let her go,” he says.

The cold in his voice surprises you, as does the steel in his face and body. Gone is the amiable man you saw everyday of your journey. In his place is an avenging warrior unlike any you’ve seen before.

“I said don’t come closer!” Your captor yanks your head up and presses the knife closer, forcing a whimper from your throat. “She’s worth more alive, but I will kill her to save myself.”

“You are already a dead man one way or another,” Hyunwoo replies. He sheathes his sword. As casual as if the conversation is taking place in a friendly market, he lifts a bow from his horse’s back and pulls an arrow from the quiver on his back. “But you choose when. Let her go and you’ll live a few more days until I hunt you down. Hurt her, and you will draw your last breath where you now stand.”

“Do you think you scare me, pretty boy. You’re just a glorified doll the king likes to dress up.”

So quickly it’s just a blur, Hyunwoo fits the arrow and draws back the string. “Try it.”

The kidnapper’s warm breath hits your cheek as he scoffs. “You wouldn’t dare. You shoot me, you kill her.”

“My lady,” Hyunwoo addresses you and for a split second, you see the gentle man you know, “please close your eyes. Trust me.”

Your mind screams no, this is foolishness, but your heart compels your eyes to shut, your body tensing.

Again, the hand around your hair clenches. “What would the king think of you jeopardizing-”

Something streaks past your cheek and lands behind you with a thunk and a gargled sound. The knife and hand in your hair fall away. 

Your knees buckle, but instead of falling to the ground, you fall into someone solid and sweaty. Hyunwoo’s arms wrap around you, holding you close as you cling to him and break down into tears, broken by the realization of how close you came to leaving this life.

“It’s alright.” Hyunwoo’s hand comes to the back of your head, slowly stroking down to the base of your shoulders and back again. “It’s alright, I’m here.”

You try to focus, to mirror his breath that is somehow still stable despite the way his heart is racing. You jerk back, tears still running down your face. “My father?”

“He’s safe. Hoseok escorted him away from the fighting. I’ll take you to the rendezvous point. We need to go now, in case there are more.”

You nod, then hesitate. “Is... is he dead?”

Hyunwoo stops you from turning your head with a hand to your cheek. “Don’t. You shouldn’t see things like that. He’ll never hurt you again.”

With that, he carefully extracts himself from your grip, but allows one arm to remain around his waist. Hyunwoo guides you back to his horse. Helping you into the saddle, he swings up behind you. You let yourself sag against his firm chest as his arms come around you to retake the reins and guide the horse back the way you’d come.

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major: statistics 

minor: business management 

sports: star quarterback of the uni’s football team!!! 

clubs: joined math club and at first everyone was like,,,,,are you in the right place??? but shownu was just like “i like math.” and opened up his stat textbook and started doing worksheets for fun. also it’s not a club, but he’s the RA of his dorm floor

first things first: everyone always gets the wrong impression of him. like,,,,,,,when they see him in the halls or walking on campus their first thought is like “oh. he’s totally an athlete.” which is correct,,,,but then they’re like “he got in on a sports scholarship,,,,,he probably isn’t that smart,,,,,,,doesn’t he rely only on his muscles?”

WELL WRONG

shownu is incredibly smart and when people ask what his major is, expecting to hear him say something like “undecided” shownu very calmly and clearly goes “statistics. mathematics is thrilling to me.” with the most serious expression

that if you didn’t know him all that well you’d think he was like??? mocking uptight math majors???? but he’s not,,,,,,,,,,he really actually loves math

and he’s so naturally gifted at it that he ended up having to do an independent study on probable theory because,,,,,probably theory I and II were too easy for him,,,,,,,

the stat teachers absolutely love him because he’s so forward and realistic about everything, he like,,,,,,,,he embodies math

i know that sounds funny to say given that he towers over everyone in his class, has shoulders as broad as the ocean, and can probably lift three desks up in one hand 

but the way he does things, methodically and without error,,,,,almost robotic,,,,,,is very,,,,,,,,,,,,,,Math

but don’t get me wrong, shownu has his charms

he’s actually super,,,,,like,,,,,,fatherly like he’s the parent friend of his group because he’s so realistic

but it can also be kind of funny because wonho and minhyuk will be talking about a party the sociology majors want to throw and shownu will be like “as long as everyone is back at the dorm by 11.”

and maybe it’s the RA in him speaking but minhyuk is just like “shownu,,,,,it’s a party,,,,,,it starts at 11 not ends at 11″ and shownu is like “that isn’t a good idea if you have morning class. don’t you have morning class minhyuk? i would recommend you not go to the party, you get grouchy with no sleep.”

and he means it with the best intentions but he sounds like a dad from a movie policing his young son and minhyuk is like I DO NOT GET GROUCHY and wonho is laughing his ass off like minhyuk,,,,,,shownu’s right you’ll just throw a fit in the morning and minhyuk is like no wonho not you too what are you my parenTS

it’s also really cute that shownu loves to like,,,,do housework. he’s pretty good at cooking (he calls his mom when he needs a recipe or hyungwon bothers him enough to get him to cook something specific) and he likes keeping things clean

sometimes people find him with his glasses on, studying a cookbook that’s called like ‘housewives homey hotpot recipes’ wearing an apron he got as a gift from jooheon and it’s just,,,,,,,endearing

because under that he’s got like sweats on with a fitted t-shirt and there’s his muscles,,,,,,you know Being Big 

one of the football players on the team joked that shownu should bake some cookies for them if they won the nationals and when they did shownu actually baked a whole bunch of them

and they were really good

even the coach complimented them

and like no offense but whoever said boys can’t be athletic but also adorable-y good at frosting cookies into the shape of little footballs was a liar. shownu exists 

most often, when no one is looking, shownu can let himself go a little and like im not saying he breaks out into song in the middle of his dorm dancing to shakira’s hips don’t lie like there’s no tomorrow

but if ioi’s pick me comes up on the TV and no one is around to watch like,,,,,,,,,,perhaps he does the choreography JUST A BIT 

shownu doing the pick me dance while flipping pancakes though anyWAY

he’s an all-around amazing student, athlete, and friend. like he can juggle practicing for a game, data analysis homework, and making sure changkyun doesn’t bring anything from lab into his dorm all at once,,,,,,,,we should all strive to be students like him

calls his mom every weekend and tells her everything he did to the last detail like,,,,,,,,,what an actual big soft teddy bear

but yes you,,,,,,,,,don’t know shownu at all really. like the mathematics department is far from your department and you’ve never really crossed paths with him

you have seen his photo all over the school website, seeing as though he’s always there in some article about football

and you don’t really care, even though every one of your friends is always going on about how dreamy of man the star quarterback of the uni really is

but you don’t have much time, you’ve been juggling a whole bunch of schoolwork and whatnot that dating,,,,,,,,like,,,,,,,,,,,what,,,,,,,,,,,is that,,,,

plus big guys into sports were always loud and too self confident (from what you saw in movies) so you weren’t exactly interested in getting to know more about him

speaking of juggling a lot,,,,,you also had another worry on your mind aside from school work and that happened to be the stray kitten you’d found outside the uni’s library over a week ago

luckily the weather had been nice and clear so you’d been able to safely sneak over to feed the little kitten during the night 

always apologizing to it that you couldn’t take it inside with you, your RA would have your neck if you got caught with an animal

but see,,,,,,,this weekend it was supposed to rain. like,,,,,,really hard

there was a weather alert on all the roadways and people with saturday classes were all whining about how they’d have to make a dash through the storm to get across campus for class

but all your mind fixated on was,,,,,,,,the kitten in that little flimsy cardboard box wouldn’t last out in such heavy rain

so even if your RA found out,,,,you were sure that maybe MAYBE you could smuggle the little guy in through your hoodie and keep him inside until the rain passed. then you planned on putting up posters to see if anyone had lost him

so, on the evening before the big weekend storm you threw on the biggest hoodie you can find, take some canned cat food as bait, and go out to collect the little guy 

thankfully when you got there it looked like no one had yet found him,,,, you could hear his little mewing from the box and you were like hey!!! im glad you’re ok, taking out the food and opening it up

but before you could put the can into the box you felt someone behind you, their shadow towering over yours and you froze

“what are you doing?”

they asked slowly and you were like shit ,,,,,,,shit is it an RA??? slowly you turned and in the slight darkness you couldn’t see exactly who it was

but then the person was leaning over, their big hand going toward the box with the kitten 

and you grabbed their hand, trying to wrench it away but,,,,,,,,,,,,,you literally couldn’t it was like grabbing a wall why heck were they so strong??

but they weren’t shaking you off either and when you locked eyes with this huge, strong person you were like wait -

what

and the boy looking back at you,,,,,,you’d seen that face before but where,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,oh,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,SHOWNU???

and he blinks, looking down at your hand still around his wrist and you’re like UM and you drop it and you’re like “plEASe,,,,,,don’t take the kitten away the storm tomorrow is coming and i just want to keep it safe please don’t hu,,,,,,hurt it,,,,,”

and shownu tilts his head and he’s like “hurt it? i was going to take it back to my dorm.”

and you’re like ??????? excuse me no I was going to take it back to my dorm

but you’re not about to say that to this tall, muscular man 

and you’re like “o-oh,,,,,,,,well i,,,,i also,,,,,want,,,,,,wanted,,,,,to take it,,,,,,um,,,,,,,”

and you kind of shuffle a bit, feeling uncomfortable because again : you’re alone with this person who could overpower you and it’s just natural to be afraid

but then you see shownu carefully pick up the kitten, sitting back on his knees and holding it against his chest

and it’s so tiny,,,,,,,,it fits into his palm

and he’s like “i didn’t know someone else knew about him” and you’re like,,,,,oh ive known for a week,,,,,,but i didn’t know if i should bring him to a shelter or if someone lost him so,,,,,

and shownu nods and he’s like “would it be better if i took him or you” and you’re like “how much of an micromanager is your RA?” and shownu is “im the RA of my floor”

and you’re like WELL THEN YOU WIN MY RA WOULD MURDER ME FOR HAVING A PET

and shownu can tell by the look on your face when he gets up is one that clearly says ‘i don’t want to part ways with this adorable kitten’ 

and so he puts out his hand and he’s like “,,,,,,,,wanna hold him a bit”

and you’re like,,,,,,,yes,,,,and you cuddle the little guy up to your chest and you’re like “oh, take this!” and you use your free hand to pass shownu the cat food you’d brought along and you’re like “that way you don’t have to buy another one for tomorrow ^^”

and since it’s dark and you’re cooing at the kitten you don’t see how shownu holds the can, looking up at you rather softly because of how sweet that was of you

but when you pass him the kitten back you sigh and you’re like “ill trust you with him, but after the storm,,,,,,,i was thinking of making lost flyers for him or something,,,,”

shownu doesn’t say anything, but he nods.

opening up his hoodie, you see that he’s got a white sleeveless tank under it and once again there are those damn muscles everyone always drooling about

,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,and they do look nice,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

aNYWAy 

and he like puts the kitten in the pocket of the tank and you’re like it’s so small it fits or maybe it’s because the shirt is large because shownu is large???? whatever he’s the math major here

and you’re like “,,,,,,,,,ill be going then”

and shownu is like “,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,after the storm,,,,,you’ll see him again”

and you don’t know if he’s like offering for you to come and see the kitten or if he’s just making a statement but suddenly some of the fear and nervousness you had about him and his ,,,, largeness,,,,, is gone

like,,,,,,,,,,,you can’t believe this but is shownu,,,,,,,the shownu from the football team who you’d assume would be cocky and mean,,,,,,,,is actually a Softie

(ding ding ding HE IS A SOFTIE)

and although you spend the weekend trying to finish up an essay and a project proposal ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,shownu holding that small kitten in his arms keeps flashing through your memory

and on monday you can’t help but subconsciously look for him everywhere, even making a purposeful trip toward the math department

when suddenly, just as you’re about to give up and head to dorms you feel someones hand on your shoulder

and you nEARLY juMP out of your skin with shock but then you hear a familiar, slightly monotone voice go

“the kitten is ok, do you want to see him?”

and you turn to see shownu, dressed up in a suit, hair slicked back and a briefcase in his other hand and you’re like,,,,,,,????????? 

and you can’t help but be like “a-are you going to work?”

and he’s like “my minor is business management. there was a mock interview today.”

and you’re like OH,,,,,,fancy,,,,,,but also why is that suit so fitted ok not the point the kitten THE KITTEN

and you’re like “where is he? did you put him back near the library?”

and shownu shakes his head and motions for you to follow him and you figure out quite quickly that you’re going over to the dorms and you’re like ??? “is the kitten still in your room”

and shownu, who heads for the stairs of his building nods and you’re like gdi the elevators work fine but ok

and when you get to his room, the door is open and you’re surprised to see that the room is really clean,,,,,,,,,like way cleaner than your dorm

and shownu sets down the briefcase and takes off the jacket, rolling up the sleeves of his white button down 

and you’re like,,,trying not to stare, looking at everything else except him

and he pulls the little cardboard box off his desk and into his lap and picks the kitten up and you can see that the little guy is happy

meowing out loud and nuzzling its tiny face against shownu’s hand

and shownu holds it out and he’s like “here”

and you take the kitten, sitting down on the bed beside him and you’re like “it looks like he’s gaining weight!!! im so happy he’s healthy,,,,,”

and you see from the corner of your eye, a small smile tug at shownu’s lips

and then you see how the corners of his eyes crinkle just a bit along with the happy expression on his face

and wow ok everything you said before about not finding him adorable ,,,,,, weLL ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

but you’re startled when you hear someone come in and another boy is like “oh hyung, am i interrupting something?”

and shownu gets up and he’s like “jooheon, this is the other person who took care of the stray with me”

and you put down the kitten to introduce yourself to jooheon who looks you up and down and then shifts his eyes to shownu

and he’s like quiet for a moment before going “,,,,,,,,,,,,are you two a thing?”

and you’re like WHAT and shownu, with no change in expression is like “what do you mean?”

and jooheon looks to you for an answer (since his hyung is really so damn dense) and you’re like “n-n-n-no we just met on friday,,,,im just here to see the kitten,,,,,,”

and jooheon, who seemingly has a sparkle in his eye is like “huh, so how do you like shownu?” and you’re like ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,he’s??????/nice

and shownu is like why are you asking them that

and jooheon just shrugs, shoving his hands into his pockets and he’s like “that kitten is lucky to have two caring parents like you”

and you’re like PARENTS and shownu is like “kittens can’t have human parents”

and jooheon is like i gtg see minhyuk and kihyun right now immediately and you’re like who???? and jooheon is already gone as shownu sits back down on the bed and is like “he’s going to go gossip, ignore it”

and you’re like gossip???? about????/ us???????? oh my g OD??

but shownu is back to mindlessly playing with the kitten and tbh who cares about anything when there is a kitten involved

and somehow at the end of this, you find yourself with shownu’s number in your phone and you guys agree on planning someway to get this kitten back to their owners or to a good shelter

and you find yourself texting him,,,,,,,,,,about other things as well

maybe it’s because one day he asks ‘have you eaten’ and you end up asking about his mock interviews and stat homework

and shownu isn’t much of a talker, his texts are rather short and to the point too

but ,,,,,,,,,,,,, shownu is an extremely good caretaker

like whenever you’re over to see the kitten and work on making flyers with him

shownu makes sure you’re not hungry or too cold or too hot and if he plays music he keeps the volume low so as to not disturb you and he’s always telling you to sit at his desk and work on a flyer while he takes the uncomfortable floor

and he even starts to pick up on your habits like,,,,,you always forget your phone under your bag before you leave and he’s gotten into routine of picking it up off the desk and slipping it into your bag before you go

and he tells you that he bought the same brand of cat food you get for the kitten since you always bring it over

and then he tells you to work hard for your test coming up that you told him like a week ago

and shownu,,,,,before he even knows it himself jooheon is sitting with him in the dorm one night as shownu is finishing up the last flyer of his

and jooheon is like “you really like them right?”

and shownu is like “they’re a kind person”

and jooheon rolls his eyes and is like “yes, but you like them,,,,,,,a lot.”

and shownu stops coloring and he’s like “no i don’t.”

and jooheon nearly drops his phone on his face laughing and he’s like “hyung, you’re literally drawing cartoon kittens for this person and you even bought snacks that they like for when they come over. you like them.”

shownu kind of just looks down at the coloring pencil in his hand. ‘lost cat’ written in bold letters, clumsy kitten faces he’s been trying to get better at drawing scribbled across the paper

and he’s like,,,,,,,,,,oh

and you don’t want to admit it to yourself but god you even find yourself looking over at the football field as you’re walking past it to get off campus and go into the city to hang up flyers

and you can hear the coach yell from so far away and,,,,,,you can see him. shownu,,,,,in his uniform running across the field

and he looks amazing in the uniform and you’re like “Get IT TOGETHER” @ yourself 

and you focus on putting up the flyers

but that night you get a text for shownu and it’s like “were you ok today?”

and you’re like yeah!! i put up a lot of flyers but there’s some more left over that i want to put around campus too

and shownu texts back that he’ll help you and that you guys should meet at 1 tomorrow

and you get up immediately because right. you need to wear something nice,,,,,,,or do you,,,,,,,,,,,it’s just shownu,,,,,,,,,,,,but,,,,,

and you get back into bed and you’re like it’s nothing. you two are just hanging out because of this kitten that’s it

but when you see shownu waiting for you, leaning against the wall of the library in casual ripped up jeans, white t-shirt and bedhead hair you’re like oooooohhhhh here we go again with my heart skipping a beat and whatnot

and you go around campus with him and people are doing doubletakes, but shownu seems used to the attention and you get the remaining flyers up when suddenly shownu is like “we should put one up there at the top of the bulletin but i can’t reach”

and you’re like well if you can’t reach neither can i

and shownu is like “get on my shoulders.”

and you’re like,,,,,,,,,,,,,,hold up 

and he’s like crouching down and patting his back and you’re turning a bit red

and you’re like “i,,,,,,don’t think-”

but he’s seriously not getting back up and you’re like, taking a breath and you’re like ok. it’ll be fast,,,,,

but wow ok getting on his shoulders and feeling his strong arms lock around you safely like GOD dammit why is he a perfect strong person

and you tape up the flyer and shownu lets you down so gently

and you’re just so embarrassed and flustered and shownu is like “we’re all done.”

and you’re like,,,,,,,,,,  “th–thank you for,,,,,,,all your help” and shownu is like “we found him together, we should take care of him together”

and you’re like TO g,,,,ether,,,,but you’re also like yeah!!!! but in your head you’re like after we find his owner though,,,,won’t that together not be important anymore??

but shownu puts down his head suddenly and he’s like “jooheon told me something funny.”

and you’re like ??? “like a joke?” and shownu is still not looking up at you and he’s like 

“,,,,,,,,he told me i liked you”

and you’re like OH,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,um do you?

and shownu, running his hand through his hair picks up his head and is like ,,,,,,,,,,, “would that be alright?”

and he looks like a little shy kitten himself, his shy smile, his usually hard to read expression soft and his voice shaking just ever so slightly even though it’s usually deep and clear

and you want to be like is it alright????? it’s great????? it’s the best thing in the WORLD

but you’re also like i need to compose myself and you’re like “of course, is it,,,,,,alright if i like you too?”

and shownu straightens up, nodding slowly and you’re like WELL,,,,,that’s good it’s alright for both of us that’s,,,,a+,,,,,

but then you feel shownu’s hand against your cheek and you’re like oh what is he- is he going to kiss-

but before he can even lean in he stops and is like “no no no we shouldn’t in public”

and you stop for a second before bursting into giggles because fkhdsd how is he so shy and proper ,,,, it’s college everyone’s practically in each others pants all the time but,,,,,,,,it’s nice

and when shownu and you get back to his dorm, shownu announces that he’s going to kiss you for real this time

and you’re like you don’t have to say it,,,,you can just do it and he’s like im sorry i just wanted to check and you’re like ksdhgjfs how are you SO CUTE

and you feel so safe and protected when he pulls you into his arms by your waist and nuzzles his nose against yours before softly pressing his lips to your own

and you’re like,,,,,,,wow,,,,,,,,,he’s so,,,,,,,,careful with how he kisses it’s like he doesn’t want to break you

and you literally have to be the one to take the lead and shownu when he pulls back has got wide eyes and you’re like “too much??” but he just shakes his head and leans in again

jooheon walks in on you two basically making out and he’s like “i KNEW IT” and you want to say something but shownu is too busy telling jooheon to get out while also trying to pull your shirt back down

and it’s a mess

but do believe the entire campus knows two seconds later that you and shownu are an Item

mostly because jooheon looked so giddy that kihyun was just like “oh shownu is dating now?” and jooheon was like HOW DID YOU KNOW I DIDNT EVEN SAY ANYTHING

and kihyun was like ur face gave it away loser

and you get a flurry of texts from literally everyone you know on campus demanding you tell them the story of how you met and how in the world you scored THE QUARTERBACK of the uni’s basketball team

and you’re like “we meet,,,,,,,because we’re both good people also yes he’s the quarterback but did you know he’s a stat major and also a pretty ok cook he’s actually a lot more than just a buff dude appreciate my MAN”

and you both still concentrate on hoping to find the owner of the lost kitten,,,,and it’s only after you get a call from a very VERY happy mother saying she’d been looking for her daughters kitten who managed to escape only days after they’d brought her home

do you and shownu succeed in your mission to save the kitten and celebrate with a cute date to the nearby diner were you sit beside him, his arm around your shoulder and you feed him fries and you guys look through the pictures you’d taken of the kitten before you gave him back to the mom

and shownu has a lot of games thanks to how popular the uni’s football team is and even though you’ve never been a big fan of the sport - you go whenever you can and watch shownu intently, getting worked up when he falls over or gets tackled

and when you see him after, you practically push through the crowds to get to him

and when you do, he has to literally catch you because you’re like “are you hurt???? im so worried that tackle looked so painful???”

and shownu just smiles, kissing your forehead and telling you he’s fine

but shownu does the same with you,,,,,tbh if he doesn’t see you for a week and you finally meetup just to cuddle under the blankets and study for your classes you hear him whisper against your hair

that you’re so important, and that not having you near him makes him feel like he can’t be completely calm

that you relax him, with kisses to his lips that remind him that you’re ok

and it’s minhyuk who remembers you and shownu’s 100th day and he gets everyone together to throw you guys a surprise party

and you and shownu both have no clue until you walk into the common room and the lights come up and there’s wonho in a party hat, kihyun throwing confetti in your face and hyungwon holding a cake. jooheon puts headbands with hearts on them on your head and changkyun puts on some sappy love song and everyone is chanting that you two kiss

and you’re both like “we forgot today was our 100th dat” and minhyuk is like LMAO BUT I DIDNT NOW KISS wonho get the camera ready

and it’s cute you and shownu kiss, getting embarrassed because it’s infront of everyone while jooheon is like “they didn’t look that embarrassed when i walked in on the- ok hyung please don’t kill mE”

and you guys are supposed to cut the cake but you get some icing on shownu’s cheek and he puts some on your nose

and you guys even up with a mess

but it’s fun, all your friends and his friends are there supporting you

and, like the good RA he is, shownu ends the party before midnight and minhyuk is like “dammit i wanted to karoke love will go on for you two but whatever”

and once everyone is gone jooheon ‘casually’ lets shownu know that he’ll be staying over at minhyuk’s place tonight

and shownu is holding you as you’re together in his dorm,,,,and you’re like “a good RA should tell me i can’t be here,,,,,,,,” and shownu is like “i don’t want to be a good RA, right now”

and tbh,,,,,,shownu is strong and looks like he could break wood with his hand but his touch is literally the most tender,,,,,,compassionate,,,,,feeling

and his lips over yours makes you feel that he’s kissing a treasure, something so sacred and important

and you really feel connected to him because shownu never lets your hand go

and after he’s kissing up your jaw, pushing your hair back from your sweaty forehead

and you just can’t with how amazing he is you literally get on top and start kissing him again and shownu is like!!!!!!!!!!! but he isn’t going to say no,,,,,,,he really loves your enthusiasm

and you wear shownu’s jersey as a joke one day but shownu seriously gets addicted to the sight and keeps trying to get you to wear it again

and you guys aren’t a PDA, loud couple you’re just subtle and caring and shownu prioritizes you like the angelic boyfriend he is

and you’ll be like “oh i really crave korean food” and shownu will be like “korean food it is” and changkyun is like “i want burger-” and shownu is like “korean food changkyun, korean. food.”

and you’re like im sorry to changkyun as shownu takes your hand and changkyun is just like,,,,,,,we’re not shownu’s number ones anymore sniffles

even if you don’t do sports you got a matching tracksuit with shownu and he would most definitely be like “let’s start working out together”

except his routine could kill any normal person and so you’re like “please spare me, but i will try my best”

shownu really loves going to the beach but everytime you guys go as a group he’s like “wear a hoodie”

and you’re like “it’s 90 degrees out”

and shownu is like,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, “still. put a towel over yourself” and you’re like oh my god

studies his stat homework in his sleep and you’re like ,,,,,,,,,,, shownu please shush

the kind of boyfriend where even if you burnt all the food you made him he’d eat it with a smile and ask for more and you’re his absolute everything. you’re his warmth

(literally called you the warmth of his heart and hyungwon was like bro,,,,,that’s so poetic,,,,,,,,,,,i never knew you had it in you) 

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king of owning three sets of the same colored bed sheets and kihyun once asked if shownu every washed them because??? they’re always the same??? and shownu was like “don’t you just buy the same thing in bulk when you go to ikea?” and kihyun was like no,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,oh my god is that what you do

and shownu just shrugged because whatever he likes his grey bed sheets

doesn’t do decorations but let his mom hang up some photos of his family and stuff when she came over

you’d think he’d just ignore them, but he cleans the dust off the frames and adjusts them because,,,,,, shownu cherishes anything his mother does for him. he’s an amazing son and literally everyone in the neighborhood always tells his mom when she comes over that he’s so filial and they wished they had a son so polite and well mannered

because lbr shownu is the person who holds the door open for anyone he sees,,,,,,,,even if they’re still half way across the street

the only thing that ever makes him flustered is that one time a mom asked him to watch her son while she ran to re-park her car

and shownu was like ,,,,,,,,,,,,hi and the kid just started crying and shownu was like nO PLEASE,,,,IM SORRY FOR WHATEVER I DID TO DISPLEASE YOU

thankfully minhyuk was coming over and saw the whole mess and came to the rescue and shownu was just like “minhyuk,,,,,kids are terrifying,,,,,”

minhyuk looking at shownu whose literally swole and tall: what

you’ve lived next door to shownu for quite some time,,,,,but you two don’t really talk much because like well,,,,he’s not a small chit chat kinda person

and you’ve always thought he was handsome but like so what you know ??? your idols on tv are handsome too

but one evening,,,,you’re getting home super late and you try to grab for your keys in your bag,,,,,,but they’re gone????? and you sigh and take out your phone to text your friend who has a spare

but then you see a text from your boss telling you that you won’t be getting the promotion he promised you

and your friend with the spare just updated instagram with a photo at a club so you know they’re not gonna be able to help

and so you just slide down against the wall near your door and hold your bag to your chest

and life sucks,,,,,,,,in this moment,,,,so much so that you can’t control tears coming out and you wanna brush them away but like no one’s there to see??? so whatever

until ,,,,, there is someone,,,,, someone who’s too freaKING quiet so you only notice them when they step right in front of you and ask “is everything ok?”

and you look up to see shownu and you’re like oh gREAT the handsome, nice neighbor has to see you balling your eyes out on your doormat good job gg what a terrIFIC night this is

and you’re like “y,,yeah i got locked out it’s nothing,,,”

and shownu suddenly puts his hand out to help you up and you take it hesitantly and he’s like “staying out here would be dangerous. do you want to spend the night at my place? feel free to say n-”

but you’re shaking your head and you’re like “that would be very nice of you,,,,,,my spare is,,,,,in the hands of someone who is busy,,,,”

and shownu lets go of your hand and you notice how warm it was when he’d held it

and you follow him to his apartment where he lets you in

and you can’t help but look at the photos as you take off your shoes and you’re like “is this your family?” and he nods and you’re like “your mother is so pretty!!”

and shownu kind of is taken back, but just nods again and you’re like oops am i making this awkward

and he switches the lights on in his bedroom and he’s like “i know we’re strangers, but it would be impolite of me to let you sleep on the couch. my bedroom is clean, i promise.”

and you’re like dhkcblvj he’s worried about me thinking he’s gross,,,,,but he’s doing something really nice??????? he’s,,,,,,cute

and you’re like “i can take the cou-” but shownu puts a hand up and is like “please, that would be rude of me.”

and you’re like ok he’s such a gentleman????? what the heck

and you’re like “ok, well thank you!! ill wash my face then?” and he’s like pointing out the bathroom

and when you’re done you walk out to tell shownu thank you again

but you see him sitting on the couch, suddenly he’s got glasses on and he’s reading something with the cutest look of concentration on his face and you can’t help but stare at him a bit longer

when he suddenly looks up you’re like oH I Totally,,,,just came into this room anYWAY,,, thank you again!!!

and you like do an lil bow and shownu is like “it’s nothing!” and you’re like akhfgfs ok,,,ill go to bed now

but ofc u can’t sleep because,,,,,,wow this is shownu’s room,,,,,,,,the sheets smell like him,,,,,,,slight cologne but also fresh breeze,,,,,

and in the morning your friends texts you that she’ll be over in an hour

and you go to tell shownu whose up,,,,,,,,,,shirtless,,,,,making eggs,,,,,,,,and you almost trip and fall over

but when he turns for the first time you see him get embarrassed and he’s like “ah - oh one moment,,,” and rushes back to the living room to pull on his shirt again and you’re like trying to look down

and you’re both red,,,,,,and shownu is like “,,,, i,,,im sorry that was-” and you’re like “nO,,, no,,,,, it’s nice,,,i mean what no i mean it’s your home feel free um oh,,,,”

and shownu is like “would you like something to eat?”

and it’s cute you two eat together and shownu is a silent eater but it’s somehow really adorable and you can’t help but think he’d be a really ,,,, good bf

and shownu is like “you can stay here till your friend comes.” and you’re like ok!!! thank you 

and he’s totally turning on the sport channel but it’s whatever you’re happy to be in his company,,,,because shownu makes you feel safe????

and when ur friend tells you to meet her by ur door shownu walks you out and he’s like “maybe, if you think this is a good idea you could give me a spare, in case this happens again.” and you’re like good thinking i should do that!!!! 

but before you can thank him again your friend is like “oH I DIDNT KNOW YOU WERE SPENDING THE NIGHT WITH SUCH A HANDSOME MAN I GUESS YOU DONT NEED THE SPARE-”

and you’re like PLEASe,,, SHTU TUP ,,,,

and shownu is blinking like hmmm what does that mean-

and your friend winks at you two and waltzes up to shownu like “so,,, what’s your name? how long have you been dating my friend here?” and you’re like givE ME my KEYS 

while shownu is like ???? but also he’s like “oh they’re single?” and your friend is like YES THEYRE sinGLE

and you’re like dO NT FLirt on my behalf wait shownu why do you want to know if im single,,,,,,,,,????

i actually have an idea for shownu,,,it’s a little bit more angsty than what i usually write, but i hope u like it!! ill write wonho soon too~~find mermaid!minyhuk (here) & mermaid!kihyun (here) 

you’ve been working as a lab assistant to a group of marine biologists for almost a month when you overhear that finally,,,,,,the scientists have caught a mermaid

and at first you don’t believe,,,,,,,,a mermaid??? do those even exist??? but everyone in the lab is in an uproar about it that you assume,,,,it has to be true

and a couple of days later the big tank in one of the labs is apparently home to the newest experiment and when you go over the room is packed with scientists, interns, assistants, divers,,,,,,

and you can barely see the mermaid but you catch a glimpse of the huge tail as he swims by and everyone is chatting about how BIG he is,,,how he must have swam too close to the shore or something

but since you can’t see anything you just decide to leave it at that,,,,,but something feels weird,,,,,,

thankfully the scientists trust you enough to close up every now and then so after most of them have gone home you sneak carefully into lab room 3 where the tank is clear ocean water,,,,, and you see him,,,,,,

 and he’s nothing like what you read about in fantasy books,,,,no scary gills or yellow eyes,,,,,,,he’s,,,,,beautiful??

and the closer you get the more you see ,,,, the toned upper body,,,,which makes sense he swims to stay alive,,,,but also the pretty emerald color scales on his tail,,,that shimmer whenever the lights in the lab reflect into the water

and even in the water it’s obvious that his skin is slightly golden,,,,,and in his ears u can see earrings,,,,pearls,,,, and you’re so caught up that you don’t even notice that you’ve come so close to the glass

and when you put ur hand on it he finally seems to notice you,,,,whipping around in the water and swimming toward you

so fast that you even jump back a bit,,,,but his face oh god,,,up close ,,,,, you swear no man you’ve ever seen has looked like,,,,,,That

but even though he’s so big,,,his broad shoulder and handsome face,,,there’s fear in his eyes and you can’t really read lips all that well but he’s saying something 

cautiously you get closer to the glass and you’re like ??? pointing to your ears and trying to motion that you can’t hear

so he slows down and you can make out the words : where am i

and you look around,,,hurriedly finding a notepad and scribbling down ‘laboratory’ showing it to the boy and the fear in is eyes gets even deeper

so you change the subject and write ‘what’s your name?’ turning to show it to him and ,,,,, he hesitates,,,, but slowly says it and you focus on his lips 

“shownu?”

and you write down ur own name and show it to him,,,,,but u can see he still isn’t settled so u add ‘they’re not going to hurt you here. they just want to look at you because we’ve never seen mermaids before’

and shownu suddenly puts his hand against the glass and you turn around because you hear footsteps and you duck under a nearby desk

when two scientists walk in,,,chatting about how they forgot their IDs but also,,,,,about some experiments they’d like to perform on the ‘mermaid’,,,,,take samples from his gills,,,,,,maybe do some other procedures

and when they’re gone,,,,,you can see that shownu has retreated to the back of the tank,,,,,and u feel,,,,,horrible

because as much as you’d thought there was something good about discovering mermaids,,,,,was there really if the scientist forgot that even with his body?? shownu,,,,is still a person,,,,,

and you don’t know why but you can’t think of anything else but that you have to get shownu out of there

and you get up to leave but hear a knocking on the tank,,,turning around to see him there,,,,,,so powerful and strong but also,,,,trapped

and you motion that you have to go but you smile and somehow,,,,shownu understands what you mean

and for the next week you see shownu,,,,being ogled by the scientists,,,,the poor boy has an identification tag clipped to his fin and on the daily you see blood samples, scales, and more being taken from him

and you realize that there are stairs the scientists use to get to the top of the tank and finally,,,when its ur turn to lock up again u visit shownu except you motion for him to swim to the top

and as you go up the stairs,,,,the surface of the water in the tank comes into view and suddenly shownu swims toward it,, head poking out as he throws his wet hair out of his face and shakes off the droplets that run down his neck

and once again ur mesmerized by his beauty,,,,,but u shake it off to and kneel down to the edge so you can speak with him and you’re like “i want to get you out,,,,but it’s going to be hard,,,,,” and shownu nods,,,not saying much and you bite back your lip and you’re like

“they’ll probably be transporting you to another bigger lab soon,,,when they put you in the smaller tank on wheels i might be able to get you out then,,,,the ocean is really close by,,,,”

shownu reaches out,,,and you look at his hand,,,,worried but you put yours in it and he looks at you,,,,,,,,,

eyes a dark,,,,beautiful brown and you hear him for the first time 

“ill trust you.”

his voice,,,is softer than his appearance,,,,but it makes your heartbeat and shownu seems to sense the rise of heat in your body because he makes a concerned expression that you just play off with laughter and ur like!!!! i,,,thank u ill do my best,,,,,ill be back tomorrow!!!

and you get up,,,,slightly stumbling in embarrassment of blushing in front of a mermaid you met a WEEK ago

but shownu swims down toward the glass as you leave the lab and with a wave you say goodbye

another weeks goes by and every evening you try and sneak in to see how shownu is doing,,,it’s obvious not being in the actual ocean where his family and friends are is hurting him

and you try to find out when they’ll be transporting him

and the day comes,,,finally and luckily some of the scientist tell you to wheel the tank down the hall to where the other assistants will take over and you agree

lifting the lid slightly as shownu sits,,,cramped in the space,,,tail scrunched up and big shoulders threatening to burst the damn glass 

and youre like “shownu,,,im going to get you out of here!” and even though he doesn’t reply,,,you see him turn his head and smile,,,,,so cutely,,,,,,,

and so instead of going down the hall you wheel him toward the back door of the lab,,,,which has a ramp thankfully and you’re shaking in fear that someone will notice but it’s only until you’re at the dock where the scientists come in on their boats that you hear the alarm 

and as quickly as possible you try to tip over the tank,,,but shownu is heavy and big and so you do what you can only think off,,,

with a running start you push the tank and the cart it’s on into the ocean,,,,, shownu seems to get the idea and as soon as it hits the water he pushes himself out,,,,,,,,and you can hear people shouting and they’re going to find you soon

but as you stand there on the dock,,,,frightened,,,, you feel someone grab your ankle and pull you down into the water

strong arms catch you,,,holding you tight to their chest and you hold your breathe as you go underwater,,,shownu swimming as fast as possible away from the dock 

and once you’re far out enough,,, and he makes sure to take into account that you can’t breath too long underwater,,, he swims back to the surface of the water and lets you go as you gulp for air and cough a bit,,,

and you can see that you’ve got to be at least a good 5 miles away from shore and you turn to shownu,,,,who has lost the fear in his eyes,,,,replaced instead with gentle concern as he reaches out but then stops,,,,,dropping his hand and sheepishly looking away

murmuring out,,,,are you ok? and you nod,,,,still a bit out of breath

but you smile and go “i think i can’t go back there,,,,they’ll probably know it was me,,,” and shownu gives you a slightly upset look,,,something between remorse,,,but also,,,,even with his big frame he reminds u of a puppy dog begging for forgiveness

and it makes you laugh and ur like “don’t worry,,,,i was just an assistant anyway,,,,but also,,,,,”

you look around and there’s nothing but ocean and you’re like “i need,,,,to get back to land,,,” and shownu nods, coming closer and scooping you back up into his arms

and ur like “wa-wa-wha-wait- wha-”

and once again you’re being held and shownu is swimming so fast,,,but this time ur not clutching your eyes closed in fear,,,, and it stings a little but the water passing by you two is so pretty and shownu,,,,is so big comfortable 

that you wish you’d be able to stay like this a bit longer,,,,but you do need air

and once you’re close enough to the shore to swim back on your own shownu bows his head and lets you go and says that he’s grateful you helped him

and you’re like “oh! one thing!”

and you duck underwater,, swimming and finding his fin,,,unclipping the ID and coming back to the surface holding it and you’re like “i don’t want it to bother you anymore,,,” and shownu ,,,,,,

seems shocked,,,,but his expression goes soft again,,,,and u swear u see him blush this time,,,, and he goes “,,,,do you visit the ocean often?”

and you shrug,,,saying that you probably won’t since you’ll have to quit at the lab,,,but then you stop yourself and look at him and go “but,,,,ill come by every now and then,,,,,,will i see you?”

and this time u see the blush,,, the way he puts up one hand to cover his mouth and nose,,,,,but he nods and u grin telling him you’d like him to take you swimming again 

but shownu catches you before you start your swim back and from around your neck he motions to your own ID and he’s like “m,,,may i?”

and you take it off,, passing it to him and he points to his ID that you’re holding and he’s like “to remember,,,,,me by.” and you’re like “yes, to remember you by.”

this is a hogwarts au,,,,,LOL because it was p hard to think of something for him,,,, find others: kihyun | changkyun

you know shownu because you know his friends kihyun, changkyun, and minhyuk

who are the biggEST pranksters in your year 

like they’re always causing trouble and getting points taken from their houses and you’re just trying to study

not listen to loud laughing, silly spells, and their half-hearted plans to explore the secret passages of the school

shownu,,,,doesn’t seem as expressive as the rest,,,,but you see him with them at the quidditch field

sitting on the bench flipping his wand in his hand as minhyuk tries to turn changkyun’s nose into a duck’s bill

but it doesn’t matter - you’re convinced he’s up to no good and just as every bit annoying as the rest of them

your friends all say it’s hard to not like the group,,,,the four boys are so handsome,,,,and even king of slytherin hyungwon takes kindly to them

but you just scrunch up your nose, sitting in the library with your “guide to advanced transfiguration” and grumbling about upcoming OWLS

because no matter what - you came to school to be a great wizard,,,,,,,,,,not to clown around

so why when you find yourself hurrying through the halls, late at night past curfew, you know that if a prefect or a professor find you you’ll be in BIG  trouble

but you,,,just had to get your bag that you left in the greenhouse - it had your homework for dark arts 

and if you had an invisibility cloak or some spell to make your steps quiet this would be no problem,,,,but your wands in your room and when you hear a voice call out “whose there?”

you freeze between the cooriders and grasp your bag, frozen and ready to be found out

when suddenly you hear the whisper of a spell, a unknown force pulls you around the corner and into someones warm chest

the steps come closer but suddenly they seem to be going farther, the light from the prefects wand dulls

and you look up to see,,,,,,,shownu???

“you’re walking without a wand.”

you open your mouth,,,but narrow your eyes and shove yourself away from him

“and you’re up to no good with those other,,,,boys i assume?”

shownu tilts his head,,,,,and you notice that he doesn’t have his robes on

just pajama bottoms and a tight fitting white tank

your mouth drys and shownu takes a moment before saying “oh, you mean,,,my friends?”

you straighten up and nod,,,, “probably going to pull some nonsense at night - where are they?”

you look over his shoulder,,,,but shownu just blinks and goes “they’re not out with me. i was going out to check on my owl.”

“your owl?”

“,,,,,,,,his wing was fractured so he’s with the nurse. i just wanted to see him.”

feeling your chest tighten with embarrassment you realize that maybe,,,jumping to conclusions isn’t always a good thing

awkwardly you mumble that you’re sorry to hear that and shownu shakes his head

for a moment,,,even  in the dark hallway with only the shadows of the lamps to illuminate your faces

you notice that shownu ,,,, like all your friends have been saying,,,, is rather handsome

the messy hair from being in bed and pajamas make him even - dare you say it - cute??

and you have an inner monologue about how you can’t think that,,,,,about the person you’ve decided you’d never like

even though you decided that super brashly with absolutely no context cough cough

you don’t realize you’re staring until shownu goes “,,,,is there anything else?”

you blush,,,clutching your bag to your chest and shaking your head,,,

you can’t seem to move but shownu points in the direction of your house’s dorms

and asks if you’d like him to walk you

looking at him you go “that’s sweet” 

he runs yawns, big shoulders flexing as he goes “you don’t have a wand, you could get caught.”

so you take him up on the offer,,,,,you don’t know what it is but with every step you keep glancing at him

without his friends around,,,shownu is silent and serious - with a handsome, strong figure that you keep snapping at yourself mentally for paying attention to

and when you get to the commons door of your house shownu does a small bow of his head

and you giggle,,,,because how,,,,formal??/

shownu looks at you and you lean up,,,kissing his cheek

“thank you!” 

you slip into the door, closing it before you can read shownu’s experience 

but he stands there,,,lips parted,,,,hand on his cheek

when he gets back,,, minhyuk sits up in bed and goes “hows the owl- wait,,,,,something happened,,,,,,,”

he scrambles to his feet and nudges shownu in the ribs “what? did you get caught? see some neat ghosts? the paintings tell you-”

“someone,,,kissed me,,,”

shownu looks to minhyuk who jumps back in surprise “who?!?”

shownu says your name,,slowly walking over to his bed and minhyuk gasps

“but i thought they didn’t like us!?!??!!?”

shownu bites his lip, pulls the covers over him and goes “maybe they just don’t like loud people,,,,,”

minhyuk furrows his eyebrows and goes “wha-what did you say?”

im glad you like how i write him!!!! here’s some friends-to-lovers!shownu ~ 

most people are really shocked when you tell them shownu is your best friend out of all people because,,,,,,wow,,,,,he???? talks to you in sentences that are longer than five words???

and you’re always like ,,, guys i know you think he’s big and scary and silent but he’s not!!! he’s a sweet, emotional guy!!! right shownu?

shownu, deadpan stare: “correct.”

but no shownu really is,,,, more open with you than he is with others. maybe he’s not sleeping over at your house in his donald duck pajamas spending five hours telling you about his first love or something bUT he confides in you when things get rough or he just,,,,,needs someone that’ll listen to him when lots of things are on his mind

and you guys are always doing something sporty together,,,,like you’ll go one hikes on the weekends or meetup at a basketball court

and shownu has been trying to teach you the correct way to dunk since you were both in high school ,,,,,,,you just never really learned

but it’s on these hikes that you guys get to know each other better and it was the first place where shownu shared something personal with you

and it’s become like a habit for you guys,,,,, to know that whatever happens over the week you can talk about it while you’re climbing up to the top of the mountain

and when you’re there you always try to get shownu to do it with you,,,,,after pestering him he does,,,,,you two just yell out at the trees and agree that you’ve let your stress out!! and that you can forget what hurt you and move on

and on one particular hike,,,,since spring is right around the corner,,,,you bring your camera with you

and shownu asks if you’re going to take photos of the nature and you’re like,,,,,,hmmmm how about you take the camera and take pictures of anything you find pretty????

and before shownu can refuse, you drop the camera into his arms and give him a thumbs up before heading up the first trail 

and shownu looks down at the camera and mutters ‘something,,,,pretty?’ and you’re like c’mON !!!! catch up or ill leave you in the dust buddy

and shownu cracks a small smile,,,,one that not a lot of people get to see,,,,,but that has always been special to you

and as you’re hiking you’re telling shownu about this horrible embarrassing thing that happened on monday and you look back at him to see him with the camera in his hands

and you jokingly scrunch up your nose and go ‘please tell me you’ve taken some photos???’ and shownu nods slowly and you give him a smile and go back to your story

and finally when you’re at the top you and shownu stand there,,,,,,and you’re like “before anything, lets see what photos you took??” and shownu passes you the camera wordlessly

and you start to scroll through the log,,,,but,,,,,,,all you see are these blurry photos of you,,,,,

well the back of your head,,,, your profile,,,,, that moment where you stopped to tie your shoes,,,,,when you were getting water from your backpack

and you look up at shownu,,,,and you’re like “,,,w,,,why did you only take photos of me?”

and he shifts a bit,,,,and you swear you see the tips of his ears go red,,,,,but he just looks you straight in the eyes and goes “you told me to take photos of what i find pretty.”

and,,,,,,,,,,whO KNEW SHOWNU WAS SUCH A SMOOTH TALKER

because as he says that you basically feel the arrow go through your heart,,,,your own face heating up,,,and your hands gripping the camera tighter because alksdfjvdds did your best friend??? just compliment you????

and suddenly shownu tells you he’s going to do his yell,,,,like you’re always trying to get him to do and you’re like “wha-

but it’s too late and you hear shownu’s voice and the sound of your name followed by a loud, clear ‘i love you’

and it’s like the world is spinning as shownu embarrassingly covers his mouth,, looking down without turning 

and you don’t know what it is,,,,,,maybe it’s the fact that you’ve felt the same way for a long time 

but you go up to stand beside him and yell out over the trees “I LOVE SHOWNU TOO!!!!”

and you both look at one and other and you can only giggle because you’ve never seen shownu blush so bright

and he’s about to lean over to take your hand when a grumpy voice from behind you goes “hey kids, go declare your love at city hall and just get married!!! don’t yell it at the mountain!!!!”

find other versions: hyungwon | wonho | kihyun 

has a four year old son who is just as laid back as his dad,,,like literally,,,,,,the babysitter that stays with him sometimes forgets she’s babysitting because he’s just so quiet and well behaved

the two expressions he has is: smiling, his chubby cheeks almost masking his eyes completely and frowning, small hand pawing at shownu’s broad chest

minhyuk teases that he’s just a mini shownu

whenever the boy grabs onto minhyuk’s fingers, he pretends to be in pain just to go “strong,,,,just like his dad!!!!”

the little boy thinks it’s hilarious, always smiling while around minhyuk,,,

kihyun on the otherhand suspects there must be something wrong - why doesn’t he cry out like other kids

hyungwon, deadpan: “not everyone is born annoying like you.”

kihyun: *pretends to be shocked by that burn* LOL

out of all the animals, shownu’s boy loves bears,,,,,,like teddy bears and all that

shownu sort of thinks it’s because he reminds his son of one,,,,,,,which is honestly????? the cutest thing

so one evening, as shownu’s on the bus with his son seated beside him - playing with the small bear in his hands

you come on at the next stop,,,,,carrying a gigantic stuffed bear you’d just won your cousin at the fair

the only problem is,,,,your cousin didn’t want it,,,,so you - a grown adult - were riding the bus with this gigantic fluffy bear

the driver gives you an annoyed look as you lug the thing in

and you return the look, paying your fare and plopping the bear down in a two seater - glad that the bus is relatively empty

but,,,,,,,there’s one person who doesn’t give a ? look and it’s shownu’s son

whose eyes go wide, a spark of excitement washes over his little face

“papa!” he pulls at shownu’s sleeve and points to your bear “big bear!!”

you hear the small voice, looking over to see a boy of about four looking at your fluffy friend fondly

you smile at him, picking up the gigantic paw and waving it at the little boy

he lets out a small clap and waves back

shownu eyes you, then the bear and he can already see his son itching to get off his seat and into the arms of the big teddy bear

but the bus is moving, and he isn’t risking letting his son stumbling over to a stranger, so he pats his head and says “you have your own bear too.”

the boy looks unimpressed at the tiny bear in his arms, he even chucks it onto the seat beside him

and before shownu can react, he’s sliding off the seat and trying to make his way over to you

alerted, as the bus is moving at a pretty fast pace, you get up and out stretch your arms

the boy nearly tumbles into you, and you’re thankful that you caught him before he could fall over

“you shouldn’t do that when the bus is moving!” you scold, as carefully as you can

he nods, a sadness flicks in his eyes but then he turns to your bear and grins again

“big bear!!!” he exclaims and you nod, “yes, do you wanna sit with him?”

the boy nods and you get up, lifting him up to take your seat

you’d rather stand than risk him toppling over again

“im sorry.”

a quiet voice comes from behind you and you notice that his father has walked over to your side of the bus, watching his son whose small hands are playing with the teddy bear’s big paws

“it’s ok, im just happy he didn’t fall coming over to me!” you sigh, looking at his father more closely this time

he’s a large framed man, muscular but with a soft looking face. 

he kind of looks like,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

you glance at the teddy bear and back at him

“i see why he likes the bear so much.”

shownu gives a small surprised “why?” and you laugh a little “you look alike, you two.”

you wag a finger between the bear and shownu, the tips of his ears turn pink when you add “you’re both cute.”

the bus driver announces that the next stop is yours, you think of how you’re going to lug this huge bear from the stop to your home

but then look up at the boys dad again “do you,,,,,want the bear?”

he looks surprised again “isn’t he,,,,,,expensive?”

you shake your head “he was free, originally for my cousin but she doesn’t like bears. but,,,,,your boy sure does.”

shownu’s son is literally beaming, hugging the big bear with an iron like grip

shownu chuckles and nods “he does, thank you um -”

you introduce yourself and shownu tells you his and his son’s name

the bus is slowing down and you wave to his son, who thanks you for the bear as you turn to leave

but before the bus comes to a full stop shownu calls out that he owes you,,,,,hopefully one day you can meet again and he can pay you back somehow

you agree lightheartedly, completely fine with making the boy happy as all the payment you need

but,,,,,,,,,a week later you find yourself in line for coffee, about to pay for your drink when a large hand slides over a bill and you look over your shoulder

shownu smiles at you, “i said i owed you.”

you laugh, looking around for his son whose pressed against the display case of cookies

“would you like to join us for a bit?” he adds as the cashier hands back his change and you nod

the three of you take a seat at the table, shownu’s son nibbling on what looks like bear shaped cookies

you grin and ask, “so what did he name the bear?”

shownu reddens, looking down at his coffee cup with a slight embarrassed tone in his voice “papa bear,,,,”