still searching

I feel continually let down by everyone around me, even people who tell me again and again I don’t deserve this treatment turn around and do the same thing usually after multiple years

idk if I’m the problem I know I have a lot of mental health issues (diagnosed: anxiety, depression, and cptsd suspected: adhd, on the spectrum - so all of this might be discussed at some point) but I’m hoping if I’m honest enough I can build something for me to believe in and keep coming back to

maybe then I can stop attracting people who only keep me around to prop themselves up and will never admit they did something wrong

maybe

I’m not sure

maybe it won’t be anything but a record