one toe left in reality

as part of the wonderful december mini gift exchange ran by @mcsr-events , here is my gift for @ilyfynn the goat writer ever!! its beefstrid angst teehee - lyrics from 35C by Kinoko Teikoku

explanation/yap about this au and extra tidbits below cut :3

seeing the truth of the self, if only for a moment

omg (it is 430am and i have no filter)

rq, hi it's ectdial, a writer for the mcsr zine

i don't know how these posts are usually done? but i'll just say words and hope they land in a somewhat correct order

in my first read through i was captivated by the piece Ave did for the S3 quarter/semis . the structure (format?) of the poem is the most unique and creative poem i've ever seen.

another similar structured one is fynn'sS4 quater/semis . both uses the most innovative and (in my opinion) one of the hardest technique to perfect i've ever seen. it encourages you to read it twice over and more. each time giving you a brand new experience and story. i was starstruck and in awe,

every piece of writing here is also art in such a pure form. everything in the zine isn't for some greater benefit, there's no monetary or reputational reward to gain from participating. it's just a community showing their love and appreciation for the game, even if they do not play it themselves .

just like art pieces, behind every word, every sentence, every paragraph is tens of do-overs, hundreds of hours thinking over every single word, and thousands of backspaces crafting every single word, comma, and full-stops.

( ↑ my brain is now officially kaput from making that sentence)

out of the 152 pages of zine, (aprox.) 102 (111 if you count credits also) pages are just filled with words, 42 total pieces of writing split between 15 writers, mode & median & average of 3 pieces per person, with a jaw-dropping 6 pieces from fynn (thank you fynn we say in unison), compared to (not putting them down im sorry if it appears this way) 26 pieces of artwork split between 23 people.

is there any way to show off the beautiful writings by artists more? or is it just unfortunate that it's a bit awkward to post writings rather than artwork on social media...

ultimately, thank you. to every writer who pushed through writer's block or burnout to complete this project or stayed up late at night, looking back at vods.

omg (it is 430am and i have no filter)

rq, hi it's ectdial, a writer for the mcsr zine

i don't know how these posts are usually done? but i'll just say words and hope they land in a somewhat correct order

in my first read through i was captivated by the piece Ave did for the S3 quarter/semis . the structure (format?) of the poem is the most unique and creative poem i've ever seen.

another similar structured one is fynn'sS4 quater/semis . both uses the most innovative and (in my opinion) one of the hardest technique to perfect i've ever seen. it encourages you to read it twice over and more. each time giving you a brand new experience and story. i was starstruck and in awe,

every piece of writing here is also art in such a pure form. everything in the zine isn't for some greater benefit, there's no monetary or reputational reward to gain from participating. it's just a community showing their love and appreciation for the game, even if they do not play it themselves .

just like art pieces, behind every word, every sentence, every paragraph is tens of do-overs, hundreds of hours thinking over every single word, and thousands of backspaces crafting every single word, comma, and full-stops.

( ↑ my brain is now officially kaput from making that sentence)

out of the 152 pages of zine, (aprox.) 102 (111 if you count credits also) pages are just filled with words, 42 total pieces of writing split between 15 writers, mode & median & average of 3 pieces per person, with a jaw-dropping 6 pieces from fynn (thank you fynn we say in unison), compared to (not putting them down im sorry if it appears this way) 26 pieces of artwork split between 23 people.

is there any way to show off the beautiful writings by artists more? or is it just unfortunate that it's a bit awkward to post writings rather than artwork on social media...

ultimately, thank you. to every writer who pushed through writer's block or burnout to complete this project or stayed up late at night, looking back at vods.

Seed One

Five, four, three, two, one, break that chest

Break those logs, you’ve done this before

You’re more than able to win this

seed, it’s your pride you can restore.

Never before has your heart pumped

so fast, in the nether before

your opponent. You can look

you can see, you can run straight for

the bastion. Breathe in, Anco, breathe.

You’re ahead, you’re ahead just pour

yourself out and put yourself first.

You’re a minute ahead, you swore

you would win and out of the trades

you run to pearl first to the fort.

Into the end you’re still well swift,

above: the beast you face towards.

Arrows fire fast as you reach her,

But you attack her nevermore.

“Karşılaşma bitti!” You lost.

Seed Five

Rinse and repeat, rinse and repeat,

All Anco needed was to run

better than he had the first time,

better than earlier, seed one.

Loot chest, get wood, kill food, get through

into the nether, be in front,

Be fast, be better than the last

time. No tilting, you must outrun

Kwist, the foe, the one you must beat.

Two to two points, just beat him once.

First to the fort, first to the grass,

first to measure under the sun.

The time is good, one of the best

And you can’t help but grin just from

excitement, the thrill of the game,

The fulfilment of the tale spun

In which you brought the bronze prize home.

In the portal, you pray enough,

To build up, up, to kill her and-

closeups and wips under cut

my piece for @mcsrrankedplayoffszine! and bonus hax slaying :D

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