incandescent revenant

what’s beyond this life? Will I see my loved ones there? Will there only be nothing? Are the texts even real? Is there something beyond? are the elders only interested in playing pretend? do they not know themselves? no the only difference with that is, they’ve more experience of what is and can be. They know their time is coming and therefore most heal their relationships with their family. Spend as much time with them as possible. Care for them. Listen to them. Love them. Keeps them feeling young. Legacy. But what about you? The self will dissolve? The soul will no longer be in its container. All I know is I’ve caused suffering. All I know is I’m sorry. All I want is for everyone to be happy and safe. All I want is death. I don’t want to experience living in this living hell.

I truly can’t wait to see what my death looks like.

Get up and fight, keep going, like you always do, even if I lose, I’ll die with a smile on my face!!!!

Life’s been safe, however I’ve been stuck in survival mode since. I’ve never changed 😂 I laugh at myself for my arrogance. I am a fool who thinks he’s wise.

What’s on the other side of death?

Why do you want to hurt me