BL FAN 94

Hey, everyone....

Not sure how many people acually see my posts that I post.

So, I have been a huge BL fan for a while now, my first BL I watched was The HeartKillers, I have prob seen it loads of times now!!

FirstKhaotung are a highly popular Thai acting duo and they are best friends who are managed by GMMTV.

Thier first BL series was called The Eclipse (2022) which I haven't seen yet but its on my watch list for sure.

Following this success, they starred as a complex supporting couple in Only Friends (2023), and reunited as leads in The Heart Killers (2024).

Their upcoming projects include the rom-com Cat For Cash which came out ealier this year which was such a good watch.

They have a new series out later this year....I think called The Invisible Dragon.

The chemistry they have on and off screen is just amazing, everytime I see them I just smile, they are such a cute pairing and so glad they got paired up.

FirstKhaotung are my fave BL SHIP

Hey!

If there are any Red White and Royal Blue fans out there, please read my Fan Fiction that I am currently writing on Wattpad.

I'm not a great story writer but I enjoy writing fanfics! I don't normally let people read anything that I have written but I'm trying something new! So please take a read and let me know what you think ;)

Not sure if I get anyone reading these or not....but.....

I haven't posted on here since forever! I'm no good with posting stuff on this site!

I'm back and will hopefully be posting a lot more....Well hopefully!

These last few years have been...well hectic!

I got made redunant in October 2023 that was so hard as I was with Wilko since 2016 . I managed to get a lil temp job over Christmas...It was okay, it helped me over Christmas, then that ended Xmas ever 2023 and then a few months later I got a new job and have been with them ever since.

Then at the start of the year...I think can't remember my aunite got diagnosed with cancer, happy to say she is now cancer free so thats great.

I love the film RWRB (Red White and Royal Blue) I'm littreally obsessed with the movie! So happy they are making another movie! Will deffo been watching it...just hope they make it happy like they did with the first one!

Thanks for reading! If anyone does lol :)

Over and Out!

So sorry I haven’t been on, I’ve been mega busy with work and other stuff. 

Anyway, my mum has been with the step dad for a number of years now and for the last few years....well since they got together, I’ve been feeling hate towards him, I suppose. 

I can’t be in the same room as him, I don’t talk to him that much and he don’t talk to me. Every year for Christmas my family comes to Cambridge which is so nice. 

I’m living with my uncle and his boyfriend at the moment because me and my step-dad have had a massive argument about me spending too much time with my uncle and his boyfriend (my step-dad don’t agree with same-sex couples) this is what the argument was about, he said it was disgusting what they were doing, he doesn’t even know my uncle! My Uncle is one of the nicest people in the whole world....he is my world.

Once my step-dad threw me out of the house.....I was 8 years old! I was mortified! I went to my next door neighbour and they let me in and I explained to them what what happened and they was not happy!! I managed to get back into the house eventually! 

I don’t know what to do!! 

Please help me, I’m so confused

So for sometime I have been feeling like my step-dad has been trying to replace my dad. My Step-Dad will never been my DAD!! I love my dad so much and I miss him, I don’t get to see my dad at all which is so hard. I feel like if my mum and dad never broke up, I wouldn’t be feeling like this. 

I hate it when my mum talks bad about my dad, she’s got no idea how much it hurts. I don’t even like my step-dad, truth be told he scares me, when he gets angry, it’s a scary thing. He hasn’t hurt us......yet but I have a feeling one day it will happen.

I’m not sure if I should send my dad this: 

Why? Why? Why? Is the question I always have, Why was I born? Why am I here? Why did my dad leave my mum? Why aren’t we a family? Why? Did I do something wrong? Please come back to me dad. 

I want you in my life, I need you in my life! I don’t just need you but want you in my life, If I did anything wrong......I’m sorry. I regret leaving that letter because I feel like it has ruined our relationship, I want you back Dad, I’m sorry. I wish we never moved up here! It has ruined my life! I miss all of you, I want to move back but it’s impossible. Dad I love you so much it hurts, I really mean it. When I see other children with their dads, it kills me. I cry because I miss you, I want to be part of your life. I just love you so much. 

Love you forever.

Sophie 

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx’ 

I would appreciate some advice with this? 

Thanks 

I so want to move back down there but at the moment I can't as I don't have the money to move there believe me If I could I would! I miss my family. I miss them everyday. I'm finding it so hard to find a job but at the moment, I just don't have the motivation as all I have on my mind 24/7 is my family. I had a job for about a day but gave that up because It wasn't the job for me, I came home the following night crying but went back in the next day and started to cry, so they ended my contract and I left.

I know that my family are disappointed in me....I can tell. I just wish I could get a job and start as soon as possible but I don't think anyone would take me that fast, I can't do interviews right as my speech holds me back. I just wish there was some way I could start a job as soon as possible and then I would save up and move back down to chelmsford.

I just wish that I could turn back time. I haven't been myself for a while now and I hate it. I miss all of my friends that I went to college with.

I just feel so depressed now.

I just don't know what to do

I just need someone to talk to about this on here because we are like a family. I just need to talk to someone that's not my 'real family'

Sorry I haven't posted in a while, I've just been so down and emotional. 

I've felt like this for a long time but I haven't done anything about it because I don't want to feel weak, that I have to admit to myself that I have a problem....well it's not a problem I don't think anyway, I've just left college I left on the 16th July 2014 and it was the hardest thing for me to do because the college was one of my safe places. I just feel worthless and I hate feeling like it. 

I have just been so down about my weight as well, I used to be 6st and now I'm 9st and I was so happy when I was 6st and I just want to get back to being 6st but I'm worried that with me 'Binge Eating' it's hard for me to stop it and I really do need help but I don't want to go to the doctors about it and I don't know why, I guess if I do go I will feel weak like I've already said. 

I just feel worthless and I hate it and I have no one to talk to about this and I hate it. 

I also have problems going on with my side of the family....my dad! My dad hasn't talked to me in about 18 months. I really want a relationship with my dad but I know that it will never happen now because I sent him a stupid  letter explaining how I felt and I know it was stupid but I left the letter in his car and I now regret it so much now. If I could turn back time, I would of never of left it in the car but I panicked and left it there! I want a relationship with my dad so badly but I guess it will never happen now will it?