who am i

sorry i overreacted i had no idea everything would be fine

when someone doesn’t wanna tell me what i did wrong and suddenly i’m 8 years old wondering what i did to make my mom mad again

I want to punch a wall until my fists bleed and crack. I want to destroy everything and rip myself to fucking shreds.

Why shouldn’t I be mad? Why can’t I just be angry and be allowed to feel it? Why can’t I burn everything down?

sucks that i’ve lost my life to mental illness just because some people thought it was okay to treat me like shit

it’s okay if trauma has made you angry. your subconscious reaction is to protect yourself, and sometimes this is how it’s expressed: it doesn’t make you a bad person

Your trauma is valid even if your memories about it are blurry, in pieces or even nonexistent.

yes my feelings are valid but i don't want them