i want die

perhaps. i do want to be loved. unfortunate.

My mental illness is my responsibility? So if I got cancer, is that too my responsibility? Shit I cannot control is not my responsibility. I'm not "hurting" anyone on purpose, I'm just having symptoms of my mental illness, because it's an ILLNESS. How is this hard for people to understand? You don't tell people with physical illnesses to control themselves. It's the exact same thing. Stop treating mentally ill people like they choose to be some monster. We CAN'T help it.

every day i wake up, think about killing myself and then do absolutely fuck all about it

the traumatized urge to over explain things so that i'm not misunderstood

so sick of people’s attitudes towards bpd. we either get vilified or romanticized or just. discredited entirely. i heard someone refer to bpd as “tragically beautiful”. i need to hit something

I'm so tired. I wanna sleep forever. And then not wake up. Because I'll never get better.