Follow The Pointed Tail

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Part of me wants to ask my psych about hypersexuality disorder or conpulsive sexual whatever disorder but another part is scared to

On one hand i know i have issued when it comes to sexuality on the other idk what getting a diagnosis will do cuz theres not rlly treatment for it thst isnt judt therapy??

And also like. Idk feeling so fucking isolated cuz my brain wants to think of some things but im. So terrified to talk to ppl about it or even nust talk to grt the thoughts out. Because we need boundaries but also my brain wants to think this way. Like. I hate it so much. I hate my brain cant be normal. That my brain and body want sexual shit (not touching nothing irl) but i know i cant break boundaries obvi but how tf am i supposed to casually talk with ppl about stuff??? I cant. Ots not shit people can or should be expected to do. But i sit here in my thoughts and worry they fester and get worse but i dont want to guilt ppl to talk with me and aaaaA

I love that a show can make me feel emotion that genuinely makes me angry at them. Not to the point of self destruction but that a show can give me a character. Have them be complex. And still not redeem them and its expected to dislike them.

I need more characters were supposed to dislike. That a show can give us someone whos done terrible things and unforgivable actions. But also still show their trauma. And also show they dont need forgiveness. No one needs forgiveness. And that showing decent human kindness =/= redemption.

Yes. This is about jax. Jax is a great character. And i love that i can dislike them. Because theyre a cautionary tale of not allowing yourself kindness and not forgiving people who refuse to forgive themselves.