perpetually sleepy

Random tidbit that I just remembered after mentioning my old science teacher, my MOM found one of my other teachers instagram accounts. Like hi ms Roberts holy shit 😭😭✌️ she was so mean to me as a kid. She used it be nice, I remember I used to share my snacks with her during lunch because I had no friends to share them with and one day I’m in the office in trouble and I’m trying to self regulate myself so I have my back turned to everyone in a chair and is clearly not talking to anyone and here comes ms roberts she tries to speak to me and I obviously don’t reply—not out of haterid for her (yet) but because I felt that if I spoke it wouldn’t come out the way I’d want it to and I’d get in more trouble— and this makes her SO pissed. She told me to keep acting this way and that she’ll find another kid to share with at lunch. I ate alone the following days 😹😹 that’s so funny right guys laugh 😹😹 she’s also the same teacher who nicknamed me bulldog and Tasmanian devil because i had terrible anger issues from frequent abuse by family members and emotional neglect that this was the into way I could find to process my feelings and get attention 🫩 yes I was the little shit throwing desks and chairs and ruining classrooms back then and IM BETTER NOW but I’ll still beat a bitch up ngl. I’m tested everyday I go into my math, homeroom, or elective class because of this one kid who has managed to turn the entire class in his side. Well, they’re on neither of our sides but they’re leaned more towards him I guess. I don’t get why I’m so unpopular with people, I genuinely don’t talk to people unless I have to or they’re my already established group of friends. And I guess that makes me comparable to the worst person in my grade ?? It’s like trying to clip a lawnmower with chopsticks with these kids. You could watch them rip open a pack of gummies and toss their garbage in the floor, and when you ask them ‘hey, could you pick up your gsrgabge please? We already have had many mice/ant issues in our school because of events like this.’ And suddenly they’re huffing and puffing and saying how you’re ALWAYS on their case for stuff when it’s none of your business and you should move despite you sitting there just as long as the kid has and then he starts blaming YOU for said garbage and tosses it back and fourth onto your desk and jokes about putting it on your water bottle that you consistently drink from every classUGGHH YES THIS IS ABOUT A BOY IN MY SCHOOL I HOPE YOU CONTRACT CRABS JUSTIN LOBIANCO FUCK YOU FUCK YOU