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I Was the Black Sheep: Finding Worth. 🖤

What happens when you spend your life believing you have to earn your place in the world?

This episode isn't about blaming family. It's about what being treated differently can do to a person's self-worth, how that can fuel addiction, and how recovery teaches you something many of us never learned growing up:

Your worth was never something other people got to decide.

If you've ever felt like the outsider... If you've spent your life chasing approval... Or if you've finally started choosing peace over people-pleasing...

This episode is for you.

🎙️ Black Sheep Addictz

Honest. Real. Recovery.

I'd love to hear your story. Have you ever felt like the black sheep?

NEW EPISODE: The Poison We Celebrate

Sometimes the things we call "normal" are the very things keeping us stuck.

This episode isn't about telling anyone how to live. It's about questioning the stories we've been told, the excuses we've believed, and what happens when we finally choose clarity over escape.

If you've ever wondered why some habits are so easy to justify, this one's for you.

🎙️ The Poison We Celebrate is streaming now.

🎙️ NEW EPISODE: WHEN PLACES REMEMBER YOU

This week on Black Sheep Addictz, I talk about something I wasn't expecting.

After years of growth, recovery, and learning to stop caring so much about what other people think, I found myself back in a place filled with old memories.

A place where I spent years drinking.

A place where I felt judged.

A place where I always felt like I had something to prove.

What surprised me wasn't the memories.

It was how quickly those old feelings of comparison and unworthiness came rushing back.

Sometimes recovery isn't about avoiding the past.

Sometimes it's about returning to the places that shaped you and realizing you're no longer the same person.

The place remembered me.

But I'm not who I used to be.

🎧 Listen now and let me know:

Vacation didn’t just give me a break—it gave me a reset.

In this episode of Black Sheep Addictz, I talk about what it looked like to step away from alcohol, navigate social settings, and choose cannabis and CBD as a harm-reduction tool instead of falling back into old patterns.

From Calgary to Vancouver to family BBQs, I noticed something powerful… I’m not who I used to be anymore. And I don’t want to be.

Season 5, Episode 11: Sober Reset — Choosing Cannabis Over Alcohol On Vacation

Sometimes healing means realizing the people you blamed were also trying their best while fighting battles you couldn’t see.

Black Sheep Addictz Season 5 Episode 8 — “I Blame My Mom” is about family history, anxiety, trauma, addiction, and trying to understand where it all started.

At a rock concert, I found myself getting irritated watching a young guy get progressively drunk beside me… and then it hit me.

For years, that WAS me.

The strangest part about changing your relationship with alcohol is realizing the things you once normalized suddenly become hard to watch from the outside.

🎙️ Black Sheep Addictz — Season 5 Episode 6 “I Used To Be That Guy” New episode tomorrow.

I wasn’t quiet because I had nothing to say—

my mind was just too loud.

Alcohol slowed it down… until it didn’t.

Now I’m looking at mental health, medication, and cannabis differently—

not as answers, but as tools.

Still learning. Still healing. Still questioning everything.

🎙️ Black Sheep Addictz — Season 5, Episode 5

It’s never just a drink.

It’s the voice that tells you

“nothing else is working anyway.”

I heard it today.

🎙️ There’s a Cooler in the Fridge — Out Now

Sometimes the things that feel the most “normal”…

are the things doing the most damage.

For a long time, I lived on autopilot—

telling myself I was fine,

telling myself it was normal,

telling myself I was still functioning.

But normal doesn’t always mean healthy.

In this episode, I talk about the routines we don’t question,

the habits we justify,

and what happens when you finally step outside of them

and see things clearly.

Because the hardest part isn’t always changing…

It’s realizing something needed to change in the first place.

Alcohol is normalized.

It’s profitable.

But is it really safe?

This one is different.

No more breakdowns.

No more theories.

Just the truth.

What it actually looked like to be stuck in the cycle…

and what it took to start breaking it.

Not perfectly.

Not all at once.

But enough to change everything.

You didn’t replace the habit…

you just avoided it.

So the moment life gets uncomfortable—

it comes right back.

That’s not failure.

That’s a missing piece.

Real change isn’t what you remove…

it’s what you build instead.